Reputation

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Hyunjin's POV

It's lunch time and me and my friends are in the cafeteria. I looked at Changbin who was too busy fiddling with his phone that he hasn't even touched his food yet.

"Hey Changbin hyung can you stop using your phone for a while? You're food's getting cold. What are you doing anyways?" I asked and tried to peek on what he was doing.

"Aish it's nothing. Just mind your business." He quickly laid his phone down, starting to eat.

Changbin hyung's been on his phone most of the time these days. Maybe he got a girlfriend? Or maybe a boyfriend?

I tried to peek again on his phone. But to my dismay, I always get caught.

"Hyung who are you even texting~" I whined stomping my feet.

"Why do you care? You jealous?" Changbin hyung wiggled his eyebrows in a teasing manner

"NO! I'm just curious! You've been on your phone a lot these days. Plus you guys already know I have someone." I said whispering the last part

"But why won't you make it official to everyone then?" Chan hyung asked, joining the conversation

"And you're answer be better not about keeping you're reputation and you being secretly gay." Minho hyung added

I stayed quiet, thinking on how to change the topic.

"But aren't you all curious that Changbin hyung is always on his phone these days? Look at him he's barely eating!" I pointed out trying to get their attention on Changbin

It seemed that it didn't work as they just shook their heads in disapproval

"Look Hyunjin, your a good guy. We know your reputation here in school is important but have you ever thought about how he's feeling? The fact that he can't talk nor look at you at school unless it's school related, it's probably hard." Chan hyung spoke up. "You entered this relationship with him. You both entered this. You should consider how he's feeling about this."

"But what about me? How can you all not consider how I feel about this? Why does it always have to be how he feels and not mine?" I tried not to show how frustrated I was but failed miserably. "It's hard for me too you know. How I want to tell the whole world that he's mine, how I want to hug him, kiss him and hold his hand in public without getting judgemental stares from other people. I want to do all of those with him."

"We're not disregarding your feelings Hyunjin. You're the one who decided this. Honestly, I can't believe he agreed to it. Why are we worried about how he feels? Because it must be harder for him than for you. Because we don't know how he feels about this. Imagine your partner told you that your relationship must be secret just because of their reputation. It probably hurted him. Why? Because your not confident enough to call him yours. And that reason is just too shallow Hyunjin." Chan hyung said then stood up to leave, leaving me dumbfounded.

He's right. I'm so selfish. How come I disregarded his feelings? Why did I even do that?

'Because of your family's stupid reputation'

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