Reputation

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Hyunjin's POV

What Seungmin just said made me smile

'I'm so lucky I have him"

But he isn't. He deserves someone else. Someone better, someone who can hold him, protect him, and show the world that he loves him

Not a coward like me

"Hey what's wrong? You're frowning." Seungmin looked at me with a worried face. I felt him hold my hand tight but not enough to hurt me

He's always been gentle and calm with me. He never tries to hurt me in any way and if even if he does he's quick to notice and apologize. He always wait for me when I have practice no matter how long I take

What did I do to deserve him?

"H-hey Hyunjin why are you crying?" I heard Seungmin stutter and touch my face

I was crying. I quickly wipe my tears away and turned to Seungmin putting a smile in my face, "It's nothing come on let's go." I pulled him and started walking but he wouldn't bulge

"Hyunjin, what's wrong?" He said softly, looking at me straight in the eyes. I sighed and interlocked both our hands

"Okay. Come with me." I say after a while and started to walk

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"So, what's wrong?" Seungmin asked as we sat down in a bench. We wanted some privacy so we went to a hidden place in the park. It's just behind the public comfort room of the park. It's kinda weird but there's a bench there. I don't know why but I'm grateful

"I- Min..aren't you getting hurt from what I put you through..?? Prioritizing my reputation over our relationship.." I say softly looking down. I couldn't bare to look at him

"Are you breaking up with me Hyunjin?"

My head snapped at him and looked at him with wide eyes. "N-no Minnie I'm not!" I pracrically half-yelled out of shock

"Good. I got nervous there for a sec." He smiled and continued, "Honestly, I am hurt but I know that you'll get hurt even more when everyone finds out. Funny actually, earlier this lunch Felix wanted to make me do something."

"Do what?" I ask curiously. What did Felix want?

"To make you choose. Me or your reputation." He stated

I went silent and looked at my lap. Felix asked him to do that? I thought he was my friend..but then again, Seungmin is also his friend. Best friend even. He wouldn't want his best friend to get hurt. Truth be told, Felix actually warned me about hurting Seungmin back then when he found out about our relationship. Felix wasn't all supportive of it but Seungmin talked to him about it and eventually warmed up to it. But I guess he still fully hasn't. Or maybe he just doesn't want Seungmin getting hurt

"I wanted to ask you that but I thought, 'Am I being too selfish?' We're both hurting here right? Not having to hold each other close or even talk to each other, it's hard for the both of us. And making you choose will add more pain for you." I felt him hold my hand "So, I chose not to ask you that. Because I love you. And I don't want to hurt you."

I was crying the whole time he was talking. I couldn't stop my tears after what he had just said. It's making me question much more if I really do deserve him

I looked up at him and saw that he was crying too. My heart ached. I hate it when I see him cry. Especially if it's because of me

I wiped his tears using my free hand. "I'm so sorry Min, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I put you through this."

He held my other hand and pulled me to a hug. I got shocked but relaxed after a few seconds and to started cry more

"I'm s-so sorry Mi-Minnie.." I sniffled while hugging him

"Hey don't say sorry it's not your fault. None of these are okay? It's not your fault you have to keep your family's reputation. Your just being a good son to them." He whispered whilst caressing my back, trying to calm me down

"B-but I'm-I'm not b-being a good boyfriend" I hiccup crying even more. He let go of the hug and cupped my face while wiping the tears continuously streaming down my face and did the unexpected

"Hey don't say that okay? Stop saying nonesense that's not true."

I blanked out for a good 3 seconds

H-he kissed me

I blushed but it disappeared when I saw his face getting furiously flushed from what he did. I don't know how but I felt a sudden wave of confidence and kissed him

I felt him freeze but I just kept moving my lips at his and he eventually started to respond

Just as things we're about to get steamy, we heard someone spoke

"Hyunjin?! Is that you?!"

We stopped and our heads snapped towards the owner of the voice

Our eyes widen in shock. Someone just found out. And worse, it was my twin. Of all people

"Y-yeji? W-what are you doing h-here?"

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Well that was sum drama

Special shout out to Yoddle1400!! Thank you so much for the ideas they really helped a lot💞