strings // newtmas au

stay together for the kids

"You expect me to be okay with this?!" Thomas screamed as he paced back and forth in Newt's living room. He was mad, no fuck that he was livid. Thomas rubbed his temples as he let out a breath. "I can't even believe you'd ask me to do that!"

Newt looked like a kicked puppy, he flinched every time Thomas said a word.

"I'm sorry," Newt tried but Thomas just shook his head.

"No don't you dare say you're sorry. Grow a pair of fucking balls Newt and say no! That's fucking insanity! You want me to-" Thomas let out a weird sound that came from the back of his throat. God he couldn't even say it out loud.

"Tommy," Newt said softly.

"Don't 'Tommy' me!" Thomas snapped.

"Hey gu-" Minho started as he walked into the room.

"Get the fuck out!" Thomas shouted as Minho froze and took cautious steps backwards.

"Can you just listen to me? For one second please?" Newt practically begged as he clasped his hands together.

Thomas was fuming, he could barely see but something about the way Newt said it cracked him a bit. "Fine."

"I don't like it either, but I really really want this. It's been my dream since I was eight years old and I want you there because I love you."

"You have to understand why I have a problem with it though right?"

Newt nodded, almost looking embarrassed. "I told you I didn't like it either."

"Fake dating Teresa Newt, I have to fake date Teresa for the entire tour just because fuckin Janson thinks you being straight will be better for marketing."

Newt winced as Thomas said it. "I know how bad it is."

"Can't you just say no?!"

Newt shook his head. "It's fucked up Tommy, I know it is but I want this so bad."

"I don't even wanna go!" Thomas shouted, he was getting worked up again.

Newt looked like Thomas slapped him.

The brunette boy was pacing again. "I'd have to hold Teresa's hand in public, be around her all the time, look at her like I love her and that's whatever Newt, she's great, except I don't love her! I love you and I wanna hold your hand and kiss you and take stupid fucking pictures with you because I like boys and I like you! I shouldn't have to hide my sexuality for some bullshit managing tactic so teenage girls can stare at your posters on their wall and dream that they have a chance with you even though they fucking don't because you're gay and you have a boyfriend!"

"You have every right to be mad Tommy..."

"Yes! Yes I fucking do and let me tell you Newt I'm pissed!"

Newt looked at him helplessly and if Thomas couldn't feel his blood practically boiling maybe he would have felt bad for him.

"I'm not forcing you to do anything," Newt started again.

Thomas rolled his eyes. "Yeah you're giving me a choice where my only two options are to pretend I'm straight and go with my boyfriend on his first tour or stay home and miss him for however many fucking months he'll be away for."

"Why don't I get you some water? We can take a break then talk some more."

Thomas had to bite his tongue back so he didn't go off on another insane rant so he just nodded.