strings // newtmas au

keep yourself warm

     Thomas sipped his hot chocolate as he looked at his sister who was sitting across from him. He'd been home for two weeks. Newt hadn't texted him, he hadn't heard from Minho or Teresa either. It kinda sucked. He missed that whole part of his life. He missed waking up to Newt's lazy kisses, he missed Minho's mac and cheese and he missed talking to Teresa.

    "I think you got him pretty fucked up too," Rose said as she put her mug on the table.

    "What do you mean?"

    "You hear the new cover song they came out with?"

    Thomas shook his head. "I've been avoiding everything Newt related."

    "It's definitely for you," Rose said as she adjusted herself on the armchair.

    "What do you mean?"

    "Listen to it later okay?"

    Thomas nodded. "I will."

    "How are you doing?" Rose asked as she watched him carefully.

    Thomas shrugged. "Alright I guess."

    Rose snorted out a laugh. "Yeah, okay, that's a lie."

    Thomas let out a breath. "It's not. I miss him, I miss all of them, but I guess in a way I'm glad it happened. The video getting leaked I mean."

  "Yeah?" Rose cocked her head slightly. "How come?"

    "It would have went on like that for...I don't know...for a long time. I guess it's better that something happened now before later. I would have started hating him."

    "You don't hate him now?"

    Thomas shook his head. "No, I don't. I still love him, of course."

    "You confuse me," Rose said as she shook her head.

   Thomas shrugged slightly. "It makes sense to me. He's living his dream, I just wasn't a part of it."

    Rose frowned at that. "I don't know how true that is."

    Thomas rolled his eyes. "Shut up, it's how I cope."

    "By dismissing how much Newt was into you?"

    Thomas nodded. "I don't need you judging me okay?"

    Rose put her hands up in surrender. "I'm just saying that it's okay to miss him."

    Thomas frowned slightly. "Of course I miss him."

    "His tour ends next week, he'll be back," Rose added in.

    Thomas gave her a look. "Okay? And? I'm not gonna see him, we broke up Rosie."

    She suddenly look ashamed. "I was just letting you know."

    Thomas looked at the clock. "I gotta get you home, you ready to go?"

    Rose nodded as she picked up her bag.

    The car ride was oddly silent. The radio was playing softly but neither of them talked. Thomas pulled into the driveway, smiling softly at his sister.

    She returned the look before grabbing the door handle and stopping. "I have to tell you something," she suddenly blurted out.

    "Okay. What's up?" Thomas looked at her, feeling slightly confused.

   Rose had tears in her eyes as her lower lip trembled. "I did it."

   "What?"

  "I leaked the video."