today without tomorrow // seongjoong

slipping gaze

"Where were you last night?"

Seonghwa released a heavy sigh and rolled his eyes ever so slightly at Ahyun's favourite question. The smaller boy crossed his arms as he waited for Seonghwa to open his mouth. The older flickered his gaze sideways before looking at Ahyun again. "I was with Wooyoung."

"Don't lie to me. You weren't with Wooyoung — I called him. He said you were with Mingi." Seonghwa winced at those words. In all honesty, he was too hungover to remember who he was with the previous night. Ahyun let out an airy laugh as his arms unfolded. "Really. My own boyfriend. Do have any idea how this makes me feel? I—"

"Ahyun, just shut up. You know where this is gonna go," Seonghwa stopped the boy. "You're gonna yell at me about cheating when I clearly didn't, then you're gonna cry because I don't seem to be denying it, and then we're gonna cuddle tonight as if nothing happened."

Ahyun stopped suddenly. "We're not gonna cuddle. I'm going to sleep alone again tonight because you're gonna be off drunk somewhere getting your dick sucked by some random whore—"

"Grow up, Ahyun," Seonghwa rolled his eyes. "I have never cheated on you and I never will, okay?" He took the younger's hands in his own, stroking the back of his hands with his thumb. The smaller boy looked away distrustfully. "Look. I love you. I always have and I always will. You're my baby."

Ahyun's eyes teared up slightly and he quickly wiped away the tears threatening to spill down his cheeks. "I wish you'd make me feel more loved, though."

Some excitement filled Seonghwa. "What do you want me to do? I'll do anything for you, baby."

Ahyun sniffled. "W-we… we can, uhm… watch a movie together. We haven't done that in a while."

Disappointment sunk low into Seonghwa's body. "A m-movie?"

Ahyun nodded. "Can we? Please. I miss spending time with you."

"We can," Seonghwa nodded hesitantly, "but Wooyoung is having a party tonight and he invited us. You want to go? We can get drunk together — that hasn't happened in a while."

Ahyun clearly didn't find that idea to be the best, judging by the skeptical look he had on his face. "We'll see by tonight."

Seonghwa held his waist with a small smile. "It's a chance for you to dress up too. You can wear that pretty choker I bought a few weeks ago."

Ahyun giggled a bit. "I can wear it now as well. Then maybe… we can… you know…"

Seonghwa raised an eyebrow as a smirk grew on his lips. "We can… what?"

Ahyun looked up at the taller male. "You know. It's really been a long time. I was hoping we can do it again."

Seonghwa pulled him closer, his stare still salacious. "Just clarify, I can do what?"

Ahyun rolled his eyes and started walking backwards. He took one of Seonghwa's hands and began pulling him backwards into their bedroom. "Just let me suck your dick, Park Seonghwa."

•

Hongjoong glanced up unsurely at the male that sat across from him on the couch. Eunyoung didn't seem to be watching the movie at all — he had been on his phone the whole time. Hongjoong couldn't help but sigh in disappointment — but even that Eunyoung didn't notice.

"Eunah, put your phone down, we're watching a movie," Hongjoong mumbled. Eunyoung sighed, pressing the power button on his phone.

"Sorry, baby," he muttered. Hongjoong glanced at his hand that still held the phone. He didn't seem to put it down, which meant that he planned to go on it again.

"Eunah, put your phone down," Hongjoong repeated, watching Eunyoung carefully for a reaction. He didn't listen and only seemed to grip his phone tighter. "Eunyoung, you're not listening to me."

"You're not my mother," Eunyoung mumbled. Nonetheless, he finally put the phone down and sat against the couch again.

Hongjoong stared at the TV again, crossing his arms. "You're disappointing."

Eunyoung sighed, pushing his hair back. "Sorry for doing that, Joongah.". He looked over at the younger male. "I love you."

Hongjoong crossed his arms. "Doesn't feel that way."

Eunyoung noticed the large amount of space between them. "Is that why?"

Hongjoong looked at where Eunyoung directed his eyes. He looked up at the older before looking away. "Kind of. Amongst other things, yes."

Eunyoung shuffled over to the boy. "Sorry, baby." He stopped when his thigh touched Hongjoong's. "There's a party at Wooyoung's tonight. Should we go together?"

Hongjoong shrugged. "I haven't gotten drunk in a while. We can."

Hongjoong watched the TV screen intently again. Eunyoung mimicked his action silently. Hongjoong slowly, and very unsurely, put his head down on Eunyoung's shoulder. The other didn't particularly react, which put Hongjoong's mood down further than what it was before.

"Hongjoong, you didn't say you loved me back," Eunyoung commented suddenly, catching the other off guard. Hongjoong was silent for a while. "Joongah. I love you."

Hongjoong looked away uneasily. He couldn't bear to say the phrase he often said to Eunyoung. For some reason, at this moment, it just felt incorrect. "I love you too, Eunah."

[a/n: pretty short for a first chapter, I know, but the next chapter will be amazing]