today without tomorrow // seongjoong

shattered glass

Seonghwa was hesitant to leave Hongjoong's apartment after their session. He planned to leave immediately, like always, but Hongjoong's words had gotten to him.

You're lucky I like being used by you.

He stood up from the bed, catching Hongjoong by surprise. "Where are you going?"

"I need to be at uni in 30 minutes," Seonghwa replied as he pulled his boxers on. "Sorry for leaving so soon. Plus, Ahyun thinks I'm at uni with my new partner. It's a whole string of lies that I need to get sorted."

Hongjoong hummed. "Who is this partner?"

"I don't have a work partner — I lied so that I'd get to be out the house more often. He wants to meet this supposed partner, so shit."

Seonghwa picked up his shirt, buttoning up the silky fabric. Hongjoong watched silently as he hugged a pillow to his chest.

"Seonghwa?"

The blonde looked over at him. "What's wrong?"

Hongjoong looked down for a moment. "Am I allowed to fall for you like this…?"

Seonghwa stopped for a moment. He sighed, turning to the bed to face Hongjoong completely. He walked towards him, putting a soft kiss on his forehead. "If you feel like it's correct, then do so. But…"

"You're in a relationship. Got it," Hongjoong interjected quickly. "Go on, you have to be at uni. When will you see me from behind again?"

"I'll be back afterwards," Seonghwa replied. "Ahyun will be with his mom until 7pm, so I can keep myself busy."

"With me," Hongjoong said flatly. "I've gotta clean up. Can you hurry up, please?"

Seonghwa made a face. "Why are you so upset at me?"

"Because maybe I don't like being used!" Hongjoong yelled suddenly, catching the other off guard. Seonghwa was confused and surprised at the same time. "Maybe I don't want casual fucking every other day. Maybe I also want a fresh start from my break-up. Maybe I've been thinking about getting into a new, better relationship. But… my mind is all over the place when I'm with you. Because most times, we don't just fuck — you're gentle too, and that's what Eunyoung couldn't offer. I can't move on from him when you're the only thing on my mind, and you're in a relationship."

Seonghwa moved his hands by his side a bit helplessly after Hongjoong finished speaking. The boy had tears running down his cheeks. "So what do you want to do?"

"End things before I get my heart broken again." Hongjoong wiped his cheeks free from any stray tears. "Because I'm falling for you when I know you can't love me back."

"Give me time," Seonghwa muttered. "I'm… I'm going to break up with Ahyun. He deserves better than me — especially now that I'm cheating on him so much. I'm being selfish."

"What are you going to do after you break up with him?" Hongjoong asked softly.

"If you don't mind, I'd like to take you to dinner."

Hongjoong was silent for a moment before frowning. "What?"

Seonghwa smiled. "I'm serious. I want to take you on a date. A proper date. Just me and you."

Hongjoong wiped his eyes again. "Are you serious?"

Seonghwa nodded. "I'll… I'll break up with him tomorrow. I can't promise, but… I need to do this. Wooyoung told me that I was being selfish, and I believe him. Most of all, I'm being selfish with you, because I'm just using your beautiful body when it should be loved. And by the way, I love your cute little tummy, okay? It's cute."

Hongjoong groaned, covering his face immediately in embarrassment. "No! Don't! You're just saying that because you have abs!"

Seonghwa laughed. "I'm serious! I bet you're ticklish there." Hongjoong gave him a look of horror, which made Seonghwa smirk as his hands crept closer to Hongjoong's sides. "Oh, you are ticklish?"

"Seonghwa, no, I'm serious, don't do anything, I'll— Seonghwa!" Hongjoong laughed loudly as Seonghwa began attacking his sides with his fingers, sending him into a tickling fit of laughter. His body thrashed around, but Seonghwa refused to let up.

Eventually, he stopped. Hongjoong looked at him, breathless due to all the laughing. Seonghwa placed a soft kiss on Hongjoong's forehead before getting up from the bed.

"I'll see you later, I promise," he smiled. Hongjoong sighed.

"I hope so," he mumbled. Seonghwa pulled up his jeans and pulled Hongjoong into a gentle kiss that lasted longer than they both anticipated.

"I'll see you later," he smiled.

•

Hongjoong frowned when his phone began buzzing gently on the kitchen counter. It vibrated twice, indicating that he had gotten two messages. He smiled, seeing the first was from Seonghwa.

From: sexy 🔥
I'll be there in 30 minutes ♡

Hongjoong grinned a bit before replying to the message with a few inappropriate words. He sat on the couch, opening the front camera on his phone. He took a picture of himself from the neck down.

From: me
Waiting ~

He attached the photo and sent it to Seonghwa with a giggle. After a few seconds, the other replied.

From: sexy 🔥
OMGJWJWO BABY TUMMY 💟💝💞💗💕💟💝💘💕💓💕💟💕💗❤💕💓💕💟💕💗

From: me
LEAVE MY TUMMY ALONE 😭😭😭💔💔

Hongjoong couldn't help but smile at Seonghwa's response to a photo that was supposed to be a nude. Maybe Seonghwa wasn't as sexy as he thought. Hongjoong chose to open the next message next.

From: Hwang Eunyoung 💔
Block me

Attached the message was a photo of Eunyoung touching the neck of another male that faced away from him. Hongjoong gasped, recognizing that male quickly. He remembered seeing him as Seonghwa's lock screen wallpaper.

"That's Ahyun…!"