A Star is Born: Tom Holland little sister

Chapter 9

"Ahhh Nothing. Nothing at all. Tom, you can leave the room now. Please." I say but Tom gets close enough to grab the box out of my hand and look at it. I look up at Tom and see tears in his eyes and then he hugged me and begins to sob.

"H-how long??" Tom asks still hugging me, at this point, I start to cry as well.

"How long what, Tom?" I say trying to play the stupid card.

"Don't play dumb with me Y/n. I know what these are. I'm going to ask again how long?" Tom says and this ultimately makes me full on sob.

"I don't know years," I mumble into Tom's shoulder.

"Why? Baby, why?" Tom says stroking my hair.

"Tom. I don't know. But I can't ask for help. So leave it alone." I say. Tom, please don't tell Mum and Dad. I'm going to get killed. Shit if Tom finds out everything else like my razors and other drugs, I might get kicked out of dance and lose my titles.

"I will not leave it alone. Y/n why didn't you tell me?" Tom asks.

"What do you mean, why? Tom, you are never around. I don't exist anywhere concerning anybody and you ask why? Maybe if you weren't such a selfish dick you would've actually tried to notice earlier but it's too late now." I say and Tom just flashes a look of absolute guilt on his face.

"I know and I'm so sorry," Tom says and I can feel his tears staining my shirt.

"So yeah. Tom just forget about this entire conversation and do something better in your life. You always seem to forget about me when your shotting your big shot movies and don't think I don't watch your interviews where you say you value family the most, because that is absolute bullshit. Honestly, if I weren't around anymore who the fuck would notice. No one because even you seem to forget about my existence until it suits your best interests. So tell me Tom is it really that bad that I am trying to forget and be happier and those pills are what's helping me not you but a fucking box of melatonin or the infliction of pain on myself. Huh?" I say angered as I pull out of the long hug Tom had me in and sat in the corner of my room beginning to get a panic attack.

"Y/n come on. You still shouldn't do that to yourself. I care for you the most, hell every time I mention our fucking family it is always directed at you. You think I don't want to be there because I do. maybe if you weren't a little selfish bitch you would understand that. You're jealous as to how successful I actually am and you will never be because you are a lonely bitch that has no one that cares for her and it's only you against the world, Huh? But when do you realize that is not the case and I am there for you. Newsflash, you can't always get everything your way Y/n. There are others in life too!!!" Tom shouts and I feel my breathing quickening, my vision begins to blur and all that comes out of my mouth are muffled sobs and whispers.

"You're right Tom. I'm a stupid selfish bitch who should die and you just confirmed it. My own brother confirms it, so I guess it's true. Every time I get called orphan go kill yourself you know what actually stopped me from doing so? You. Tom, it's always been you because I always thought I had an older brother who actually gave a crap about me but you're like everyone else. Just leave the fuck alone and go do something useful in your life I'm just that one part of it holding you back. JUST GET OUT!" I notice Tom is still standing there.

"No, I will not get out. You need help and I'm sorry if you think I wasn't there for you before but I will be now. Starting with throwing away this box of pills." Tom says holding up my anti-depressants.

"No. Tom stop. I can't live without those. Please." I say but Tom shakes his head and goes along with what he wants.

"I want you to be better, so this must be done," Tom says. I get so angered I run out I can't handle this conversation anymore.

"Y/N COME BACK HERE!!" Tom says attempting to run after me. Sam, Harry, and Harrison are just confused as to what happened.

I just ran out. I got through the secluded forest which I know like the back of my hand but Tom doesn't because he also takes his expensive car and drives to the front area of the house, being too much of a wimp to step foot into the area of the forest. I ignored Tom's yells to come back and continue to run. I decided to run to a local gas station and hang there until I cooled off and maybe came home, hopefully, I would get killed by a car or something so I wouldn't have to see Tom again.