chapter seven: flu

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i often hear people claiming they've "caught" depression. talking about a mental disorder, a mental struggle as if it's some sort of influenza they've woken up with out of the blue.

do not speak of a mental disorder -or any mental disorders- as if it's something you just wake up with, because quite frankly it's not.

you speak of my struggles, my roller coaster of emotions and burdens as if i woke up one morning with all these weights on my back.

my mental disorder is no flu.

it's a gradual build up of demons and burdens, a build up so large that even i'm amazed at how long i've endured the pain. it's a slow rise to a climax you've thought would never happen, an opening of constant numbness and struggles. it's a weighing force, a force so heavy even the smallest and easiest tasks become emotionally and physically difficult.

that's why i ask of you, do not speak of my mental disorder -a disorder affecting god knows how many people- as if it's something you suddenly got slapped in the face with.

because my disorder is no flu.

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