Imagines of Shawmila [COMPLETED, REEDITING]

14| Listen Before I Go

it's a sad one, again. prepare some tissues ladies and gentlemen. song is from Billie's 'listen before i go'.

Take me to the rooftop
I wanna see the world when I stop breathing
Turnin' blue

Shawn took Camila to his rooftop after their dinner in a Saturday night. The couple were so happy and in bliss, but not for Camila.

She is always buried by hate, insults and abuse which her lover don't know. He doesn't need to know about it anyway.

They looked at the city lights of Toronto, shimmering their eyes. She know this is her last time she can see the world. Her very last time.

Tell me love is endless, don't be so pretentious
Leave me like you do (Like you do)

Shawn cupped her cheeks, his smile never slipping away from his lips. He leaned his forehead to hers and said, "I love you so much Camila, endlessly."

That almost tore her up. She know he meant it. But, she don't want him to pretend. He deserves better than she is. She is just a no one who left Fifth Harmony, leaving the other girls hate her. She is a plain girl who was cheated on Matthew with a blonde chick.

She wants him to leave her alone.

If you need me, wanna see me
Better hurry 'cause I'm leavin' soon

She looked deeply at his eyes, those hazel orbs made her weak. She croaked out, trying not to crack her voice. "Wanna go to bed and binge watch Riverdale?"

Shawn's grin grew bigger and nodded, pulling off from her face and dragged her down to his bedroom. There they lay down, watching Riverdale the whole night, popcorn on her hands.

Sorry can't save me now
Sorry I don't know how
Sorry there's no way out (Sorry)
But down
Hmm, down
Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek
That's what a year-long headache does to you
I'm not okay, I feel so scattered
Don't say I'm all that matters
Leave me, déjà vu (Hmm)

As he was so engrossed of the show, she was breaking down silently, biting her lip to stop her sobs coming out from her lips but she couldn't help it.

She dropped the bowl, catching the attention of the Canadian. Shawn took a glance of her and his face immediately soften.

He pulled her into a warm embrace, calming her down as he soothe her with sweet words. He asked, "What happened princess, please tell me."

She looked at him, his facial expression was concern. She couldn't let him know about what's gonna happen later. "It's just.. about my mom." Lied Camila.

Shawn knows about her mother's death 3 months ago because of Leukemia. Her uncle abused her, thinking it was her fault. He was there the whole time when she needed comfort.

"Shh, it's gonna be fine." He pecked her cheeks, still soothing her down. "You don't matter to him, okay? You matter to your family, friends and  your fans. Don't think about suicidal thoughts again, please."

She wasn't feeling better. It was becoming worse. She felt like a heart being shattered into millions of pieces. She croaked out, "Can we just watch the show?"

He nodded and they went to watch it. Throughout of the start of the second season, Shawn fell asleep in her arms. She looked at him sadly as he slept there peacefully. She can't take it back.