Dysphoric
Depressed
Full of anxiety.
Suffering from mental pain so bad sometimes I don't want to be alive anymore.
These are things I should say, but instead I say:
"I'm just tired."
A drug addict mom.
A body I hate so fucking much.
A mind that races and thinks a million thoughts a second without any end in sight unless I put it there myself.
Reasons I should give, but instead I say:
"I stayed up to late."
Can't pull two in the morning anymore.
Nervous laughter hoping they won't see through my lies.
They don't.
Thank god
Or whatever I believe in because at this point I don't think I can even believe in myself.
And one who can't believe in themself can't believe in other things because they're to busy trying to find a good god damn reason to stay in pain any longer than they need to.
These are the thoughts I should tell you, but instead I say:
"I'll be fine. I'll try to go to bed earlier tonight."
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Poetry of a Young Mind
שיריםIt's exactly what it sounds like. My teachers and friends have pushed at me for years to expose my poetry to more than just them and myself so....that's what this is. I actually don't write a lot of poems about being Trans, but you might find one o...
