All I Need Is You | Jensen Ackles

Chapter 62- level 3

For the first time in too long, I woke up feeling good. No nightmares, no waking up multiple times in the night, no nothing.

I look up at the mirror in the corner and check my belly. I'm not sure if it's getting bloated or I'm trying to make it look like that.

I still lose my breath after all this time at the sight of the water just out the back windows. The house sits on a large lake which makes the water seems endless and the sun is rising at the moment, making it even more breathtaking as the reflection shines on top of the lake, nearly blinding me.

I make my bed and go downstairs after I take a quick shower.

"Good morning, sunshine," Jensen says, putting a cup of coffee on the table for me.

"Morning."

Who knew I'd be sitting here drinking coffee with Jensen.

Is this wrong? It is and I know it. I shouldn't be talking to him after everything he did, but he deserves a second chance but it'll be the last one.

And I have nowhere to go so I just might stick with him until he does something and I'll leave.

But I promised myself no more romantic shit, he tries to flirt with me all the time but I just turn him down.

And I'm wearing hideous outfits, I want to make sure he doesn't just want me for my body and shit. Not that I think he does anyways because if he did there are a million girls better than me but there's no reason for me to try and look good. I'm not trying to seduce him or anything like that.

And I'm sleeping in the spare bedroom so we are basically roommates but a little bit more than that.. he's the father of my baby after all so it's totally fine.

I join him at the table as I take a sip of my drink.

"You know what sounds cool?"

"What?"

"I've been thinking about it all night and I think we should get married!" he smiles and I choke on my own saliva.

"Yeaaah, no." Day after day I realize that he's so irresponsible and does things he ends up regretting. If he said this to me two years I would be jumping on him and screaming yes, but now no no no that's not going to happen.

"Why not?! I mean we're living together. We're having a freaking baby. What's the difference between us and married people?! We should really do it."

I look at him with wide eyes... Yeaaah there's no difference!

"You and me?! You and ME!! Are you out of your mind? You know we can't work. It's impossible we just don't.." I try to explain but I'm at a loss for words.

It's not that I don't want to marry him but we need to start all over again. That's too fast and I'm not sure of him. Dude switches moods in seconds, literally seconds and he wants me to marry him. Nope, that ain't going to happen before he changes things.

"Nah, you will make an amazing wife. You already do all the cleaning, the cooking, laundry, hmm basically everything.. and there's nothing to complain about."

"You think a wife is about cleaning and cooking and shit... a housemaid does that too, why don't you just get one and leave me alone? I'm quite satisfied with my life the way it is."

"I don't love that housemaid though."

"Well from everything that you said I didn't think love was necessary for people to get married."

"I love you and I know deep down you do too.."

"Yeah, I love myself." I try to joke but he seems serious.