Where Stars Collide

Jake I'm Sorry

I recommend you listen to the song above not only because it's a good song but because it puts you in the feels. Its also mentioned in the story.

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Mani's POV

When I got home I planned to just lay in my bed and not do anything that was until my phone started ringing. The dirt few times I ignored it but after the fifth time I picked up my phone slightly gasping at the name that was on the screen. Why was mom calling me? I asked my self as I answered.

"Hey"

"Mani Jakes in the hospital" my mom replied not even bothering to say hi back. I sit up now fully alert.

"What why?" I asked with concern in my voice.

"His father hit both him and his mom with a bat along with beating him with his hands." My mother sighed before continuing "He isn't doing good M. He's in a coma." I sat in my bed with tears in my eyes but I kept them back because I didn't want to cry especially while I was on the phone with mom. After realizing the silence my mom started talking again.

"I told the doctors that I was sending you there i'll send you the information. When you get to the front desk just say you're my daughter they'll let you see him and Mani I know for a fact he'll be okay because he's strong. Stay safe and I love you."

I hung up not saying I love you back as my mind was just filled with thoughts of Jake. I practically ran out the house and down the street not even bothering to ask Bertram for a ride. I ran for what seemed like hours even though it was only minutes. My legs began to hurt but I refused to stop that was until I tripped over the uneven sidewalk causing me to fall face first onto the ground grunted in pain from the fall. For awhile I laid there panting the exhaustion catching up to me. I closed my eyes still trying to wrap my head around what happened to Jake. I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard a familiar voice.

"Woah M you okay?" I looked up to see Alice looking back down at me. I simply stared back not wanting to speak in fear of breaking down and crying. Noticing my silence he simply offered his hand to me.

"Here let's get you off the ground seeing as its pretty uncomfortable." He said with a smile trying to light the mood.

"Now will you tell me why you were on the ground?"

"I tripped" I say in a more harsher tone than intended but at the moment I didn't care all I wanted to do was get to Jake. Alice's smile fell.

"Are you o-"

"Yes i'm fine" I say interrupting him.

"I'm sorry Alice but I have to go" I make my way around him but Alice grabs my hand causing me to stop.

"Its about Jake being in the hospital isn't it?" Alice asks seemingly irritated. I looked at him confused as to his reaction. Noticing my face his expression changed to a softer and more sadder one. I still was confused but shook it off as another question came into my head.

"Yeah but how did you know about that?" He paused for a second before speaking.

"My cousin works at the hospital Jake is in so when he saw him he told me." He smiles

"Okay...." I respond not really buying it but thats not important right now. Alice decided to tag along with me to see Jake so we start to make our way there. There's an awkward silence between us but I don't really care my mind is still thinking about Jake. We finally make it there and I practically run in and towards the front desk. Alice follows after me commenting about how fast I was but I just ignored him. I told the lady my last name as she pointed me to the direction of Jake's room. I thank her as I make my way towards it.

Me and Alice enter the room only to see Jake in a hospital bed with an abundant of wires coming out of him my heart dropping at the sight. I immediately walk up to him taking his hand.

"Jake? Jake its me M" I say and obviously I get nothing in response.

"Come on Jake say something." My eyes begin to water but I refuse to cry not wanting Jake to see me like that. I hold his hand tighter as I continued speaking.

"J-Jake you have to say something, anything" I say as tears began to fall down my face.

"Jake you have to wake up. I'll do anything for you to wake up. I could take you to that terrible restaurant you love. O-or I could watch all the Marvel movies with you. Hell i'll buy you all the Wendy's you want but you have to wake up."

"M..." I hear Alice say but I ignore him. My attention focused on the now bruised brunette.

"Jake you said you wouldn't leave me that you wouldn't a-abandon me l-like my parents. So why? Why aren't you waking up?" I begin to lightly shake Jake as I became more desperate.

"Come on wake up, wake up Jake please you have to. WAKE UP." my shaking becomes more violent. Alice notices this and grabs onto me pulling me from Jake.

"NO! LET GO" I yell as I cry more. I fall to the floor still crying. Alice goes to comfort me but I push him away as I run out of the hospital not wanting to see Jake like that anymore. When I get home I run into my room ignoring Bertram's greeting. I sit there for a few minutes in silence but ultimately realize that listening to music is better because I want to ignore my thoughts. I listen to "Let Me Down Slowly" by Alec Benjamin. Every time it ended I kept replaying it only focusing on one part as it replayed in my head.

"Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy I hope you can show me.
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely.
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly...."

Listening to this a thought crept into my head

I took him for granted
And now he's gone

All the good morning texts, all the times he stood up for me, all the times he was there for me when my parents weren't, all the times where he'd come over if I had a nightmare, all the times he would sing to me much to his dismay.

All the times where he

Protected me,

Fought for me,

Been there for me,

And I never said thank you

I'm a terrible friend

No, a terrible person

And for that Jake.....

I'm sorry