Dear Diary (Completed!)

The starting of something new...

"Ew, what are you wearing?"
"Don't touch me, ugliness might be contagious!"
"Watch it, moron!"
"What are you looking at, freak??"
"You're so ugly"
"You're so fake"
"Stupid idiot."
"You're so fat!"
"No one actually likes you!"

Each one of the popular kids (ever notice how I keep calling them popular kids, not cool kids? I think they are farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr from being cool kids lmao) took their turn saying something to me. They were just being plain rude. I tried my best to ignore them, but that really hurt.
These are my insecurities. There are two ways to hurt me: bringing up my anxiety/insecurities against me or mentioning the fact that my biological parents abandoned me in the rain as a baby. My anxiety has been getting worse lately. I've been hearing it lots in my head, but when other people say it, it's like I believe it even more.

So when they said that, it really hurt me. I just wonder how they knew. Judging by the satisfied grin on their face as they walked away, they knew this would hurt me. What if the girls told them how to hurt me?No, the girls would never hurt me. Were like sisters. Sisters don't backstab each other. Why would they do it anyways? What would be there motive to hurt me? Could they have done this? And today, they weren't there to defend me, they were at their lockers or something...
Thanks god I didn't mention my parents. Let's hope this stops, it's not exactly on my bucket list...

I'm gonna have to confront my "friends" about it tomorrow. I don't know what I'll do if it is true. I feel so betrayed. Oh, please let this be fake, I don't want to lose my best (and only) friends..
They seemed so good too. They seemed like they wanted to be my best friends. Funny how the best people in your life can decepoint you the most sometimes...
I really don't wanna lose them though, please help :(