Do You See Me Now? ✔

Chapter 10 - The Brother

Thursday, October 18th

     Jesse felt confused when he woke up in Loek's room, needing a few seconds to realize why he was there. It felt surreal that he had actually been kicked out, now that he had slept a few hours. Loek made him breakfast, and as if they had known each other for years, he had also left him alone for the most part.

And Jesse silently thanked him for leaving him alone, since he always was a bit moody in the morning. It was as if Loek had sensed Jesse wasn't a morning person.

Jesse had also noticed Loek was holding back on being cheerful, and he figured he was in fact a morning person himself. As soon as Mees had entered the kitchen, they had started a conversation of their own while Jesse had munched down his eggs on toast.

He hadn't missed the looks Mees kept sending him. They were mostly side-glances with squinted eyes. Mees did not trust him, and Jesse couldn't blame him; he was a complete stranger to him.

To both of them, really.

At school, he had instantly pulled Yoni aside, and had informed her that he got kicked out. It took him several minutes before she believed him when he said he was fine and had a roof over his head again. Then she had started asked him why.

Jesse had shrugged and told her his tattoo was probably a step too far, but that it had been building up for months. It wasn't that big of a surprise to him, now that he had time to overthink the whole situation.

"Just don't tell the rest. I don't want anyone to make a big deal out of this." Jesse pleaded, nearly begging her.

"But it is a big deal," Yoni hissed in anger. "He kicked you out! His son."

"Well, I'm not his son according to him..." Jesse tried to joke, but Yoni cut him short by sending him a look with squinted eyes.

Why was everyone suddenly sending him looks like that?

"You are, and this is bullshit."

"Yoni, please. If I'm being honest I don't really care that I don't live with him anymore. I'm fine where I am now, and as long as Mees doesn't kick me out, I will remain fine."

Yoni eventually took in a deep breath, nodded, and kissed his cheek. "I trust your judgement. But do remember I'll always be there for you. I still love you."

"I still love you too," Jesse hummed happily, pulling her in his arms.

They had parted ways afterwards, since they didn't share classes on Thursday morning, and Jesse had mostly entertained himself by playing hangman with Axel during classes, while Calix was taking notes and sending them annoyed looks.

But even Calix wasn't immune to Jesse's humour, and whenever Calix seemed annoyed, he would continue to joke around until Calix couldn't help but laugh.

A laugh Jesse thought was worth dying for. It sent shivers down his spine. His body would someday betray his feelings if things continued to progress the way they did lately. Jesse needed to find a way to satisfy his needs, but he had no idea how to do so. His obsession with Calix was ever-growing and Jesse figured that wasn't just suddenly going to stop if he hooked up with someone.

The obsession would still be there.

Damned perfect Calix Milonas.

And things only got worse when Calix started to loosen up around lunch time. His morning mood was gone, and it was noticeable.

Jesse had already been seated at their regular lunch table, with Axel, Simon and Pete as company, when Calix took a seat beside him and ruffled up his hair with a smirk on his face.