You are What My Heart Desires

Chapter 5

"I....am...sorry...Thirdy", those were the words that came out of my mouth as I saw Thirdy, my ex-best friend was crying.

Well, to be honest, it was never my intent to make him cry. I was mad at him, yes, but after everything, I just decided to leave it aside and focus on what is important to me.

I was just caught so much in my emotions, that all my anger to Thirdy just came out of no where.

When I told Thirdy that I liked Jho, Thirdy said that he needed some space, for the better of both of us - but, I never thought that Thirdy would need THAT much space.

It hurts, but I had to deal with it.

He would just seen zone me on texts or just not talk to me what so ever. It was just like we never were best friends. As I walked the halls of Ateneo and see Thirdy, he would just simply turn his attention to something else and completely ignore me.

After Thirdy just left me like that, I never found a best friend just like him. Someone, I can tell everything too or just to hang out with. It was just never the same; without him.

And now after a year and I don't know how many months, he is finally here with me. At the time, when I needed him the most.

I would be lying if I say that I don't miss him because, in reality, I really do. I really miss Thirdy, despite everything that he has done to me.

"Bea...", Thirdy said as he looked into my eyes.

I miss you so much Thirdy. More than anything. I thought to myself as we stared into each other's soul.

"Thirdy...", I replied to him.

"I miss you."

Ferdinand Crisologo Ravena the third I fucking missed you.

As Thirdy said this, I took my head off his shoulder and sat up straight facing the altar, while Thirdy removed his arm from my shoulder.

We both calmed down after our equally emotional breakdown for about a few minutes, and I then asked him, "Thirdy, what was there that you liked about me?".

I looked at Thirdy to hear his answer but, all I saw was his confused but, still smiling face.

" I thought you were mad at me. Why did you suddenly change your mood?", Thirdy replied.

"Bakit?Bawal?", I muttered as I looked at him trying to give off a sarcastic mood.

"Hay nako. Bea talaga. You are so annoying, you made me cry oh. And now you ask me that question?"

Thirdy does have a point. I just made him cry then now I  just asked him such an unexpected question.

"Answer my question first.", I said back to him while trying to keep a straight face.

"No.", Thirdy argued.

"Yes, answer the question."

"No."

"Yes"

This cycle went on and on of us just rambling about if he would actually answer the question or not. In short, he won and wasn't able to get a definite answer to my question.

Damn it. I missed this so much. I miss me and Thirdy's kalokohans together.

"Fine, fine, fine. Sorry."

Both of us just continued talking about our lives and the UAAP season that I was currently playing for, and how he was able to manage the championship.

We both were just laughing as, Thirdy was saying all these wonderful stuff that I missed.- just like the old times.

After a while of just talking and trying to recover from such emotional events, Thirdy tapped my back and proceeded;

"I saw you here a while ago, looking sad and just, not okay. Are you okay Bei? Is there any problem? I know na-", before he even finished I interrupted him, "No, it's okay Thirdy. And yes. I really am not okay kaya I am here."

I am pretty surprised that Even after all this time, Thirdy still knows me and how I act.

"Do you want to tell me why?", Thirdy then asked.

"Sure.", I told Thirdy, while I expressed what had happened to me earlier with Jho.

As I finished my story, I could still feel some tears dripping down my face. Even if I already cried earlier today and in front of Thirdy, I was still in pain.

Then I just sat there in shock.

Thirdy went toward me and opened his arms.

With this, I just then felt his embrace to my body which I honestly never would have thought I missed.

Even if Thirdy did not say anything, I could feel his sincerity and just his full warmth from his muscular arms, to his hair that I would always make a mess of, and most especially; his heart which was definitely felt from his tight embrace, and because of all of that he just made my mood so so much better.

It was the simple things you know.

And before, when we both were still okay with each other, Thirdy had always made me feel this way. May it be after training, a loss in the game, or when I was failing a subject, he always and still is managing to make me smile, even at my worst.

As we were both still together in a tight hug, I then whispered to Thirdy's ear;

"I missed you too Thirds. I forgive you.Please don't leave me again."

"I won't ever hurt you again, Isabel"

We both released each other's embrace and smiled as we did so.

"So friends?", Thirdy stated.

"Mhmmm, maybe not," I replied.

"Ah okay sige. Okay lang naman sa akin."

Seriously, Thirdy? We just both cried in front of each other, poured our heart out and literally hugged for a solid 5 minutes. Doesn't that indicate we are okay already? Well, for a Thirdy Ravena it apparently is not.

I rolled my eyes at him, and as I did so he said, " Hey, why did you roll your eyes?".

"You are so annoying", I argued and slapped his biceps.

"WHAT WAS THAT FOR ISABEL?"

"Of course, we are okay. You totally don't understand sarcasm at all, Ferdinand."

"Best friends?"

"Best friends."

Finally, after all of this time of waiting, he is back.

My best friend is back.