Growing feelings - (Bertholdt x Reader) College AU

The Kiss

It was the second day of the festival, and it felt like Bertholdt was avoiding me the whole morning.

I didn't want to be annoying so when one of the girls from Reiner's group asked me if I wanted to go with her to find a pretty necklace, I said yes.

If he didn't want to spend more time with me then I wouldn't be a bother. I didn't mind at all.

Not at all.

- What do you think of this one? - she asked me with a smile.

- It's nice. - I said, emotionless.

- (y/n)... is there something wrong? I know we've just met but I want you to know that I'll be here if there's something troubling you. I would like everyone to have fun and enjoy this trip.

- Thanks... it's nothing, really. I guess I'm just tired from yesterday. I usually sleep more hours. Yeah that's the reason! Hey look at this one, isn't it pretty? - I pointed at a random necklace trying to change the subject.

I spent the afternoon going arround looking at clothes and accessories with Christa, and I slowly started to feel better. She was very kind and seemed like a nice person. I was glad that I got to meet her.

Still...

I wonder what Bertholdt's doing.

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On the outskirts of the festival perimeter, there was an area with a few garden benches, positioned in a way that would allow for a beautiful view of the mountains far ahead.

It was almost time for the sun to set.

I looked at that scenery and couldn't avoid my feelings anymore. I wanted to see him. To bring him there. I don't mind if I'm annoying. If he doesn't feel the same way.

I want to be with him.

I need to tell him.

Even if I'm rejected.

I need to let him know...

That I...

- Christa, there's somewhere I need to go. Do you mind...?

- Not at all! I was about to say that we should head back soon. I'm going to the bathroom and then I'll join everyone. Don't worry about me, you can go now.

- Thanks! It was fun today! See ya! - I said while I walked away.

Why was I in such a hurry? Like I would run out of time. Or maybe out of courage.

I was getting closer the place where our tents were. Is he there? What do I say when I get there?

It's right after those trees.

Should I grab him by his arm and bring him there? Should I just say come with me?

It's right over there.

Suddenly I heard people cheering and clapping.

I looked for the reason of the commotion and my heart felt at my feet.

I saw that...

Bertholdt was... kissing Reiner.

What?

I immediately turned arround and walked the same path I came from.

So they really were together? And everyone knows? Why didn't they tell me?

Why?

If I knew I wouldn't have these ideas... I wouldn't be this hopefull.

I see... this whole time.

I've been nothing but a third weel.

I reached one of the garden benches and sit down.

The sunset must have been amazing but my vision was too blurry to see.

How mean... to make me think that I ever had a chance.