Secret Sin

Leading up to

December 9

Pam's P.O.V.

"Missy won't tell me her birthday she said losing her virginity to me was enough of a gift. That's bullshit I want to get her something. So, I had to ask Sam. It's on the 12th I've got to figure something out before then. He also told me she really doesn't want a birthday party. I can respect that, but I need to get her something.

December 12

Marissa's P.O.V.

"Happy Birthday sexy!" I wake up to pam giving me a gift. What how did she know?

"I-It's not my birthday." "Come on I know it is, just take the gift you deserve it." "For what I didn't do anything." "For being my amazing ass sexy ass girlfriend." "ugh okay." I really didn't want her to buy me anything. I think she made me blush.

"Well open it!" "That sound like a command." "It wasn't I promise." I opened the gift and it's a really nice set of sketch pencils.

"Babe how much did..." "If you don't accept them, I will be really upset with you. Plus, I'm not broke at all." "Thank you." "Of course, babe I love you." "Love you too."

Lunch at the school

"Happy birthday!" Jane and Sam shout at me. Sam hands me an oversized chocolate cupcake no frosting because I don't like frosting and it makes me sick not in a good way. He also hands me a gift.

"Guys come on..." "Oh my god stop just take the shit we aren't going to stop because you say to." "Yeah what she said." "Well, where's your gift, Jane?" "You're going to have to get it after school." "Oh, don't open mine here." "Sam? What did you get me?" "It's just a gift for you and pam." Me and Pam that's weird... wait!

"Did you get a sex toy!?" He just laughs and walks away.

"Sam!" Jane giggles a little.

"Jane! Don't indulge him!" "What it's funny." "Ugh."

The end of the day

"A dress?" "Yes, you are going to prom, right? You better be." "But you know I don't like dances. Plus, I can't go with Pam which makes it worse." "Well, you could go with me and Robin. Come on I want to see you there." "I'll see thanks for the dress." "No problem."

At Marissa's home

"Happy birthday Hun." "Thanks, mom." "Go get ready to go." My mom takes me out for a birthday dinner every year unless my dad comes then she takes me out the next day it's pretty lame. But she always takes me to this nice restaurant the food there is expensive, but she insists I get what I want.

"Hun? Are you ready?" "I'll be down in a minute."

"How do I look, mom?" "Wow, you're so beautiful! Is that your dress?" "Jane gave it to me for my birthday for prom. I figured I'd break it in." "You look amazing you. You should wear more dresses." "Maybe for special occasions."

At dinner

"So, when can I meet your girlfriend?" "Um?" "Marissa?" "It's just that she's older than me mom I don't want her to get in trouble." "How much older?" "Does it matter?" "Yes." "Only a couple of years." "That's not all that bad and now is your birthday so 18. So?" "Soon then." "Good." She smiles.

"What about you?" "W-What." "Have you been trying to date anyone?" "No, I don't have time for that." "Mom come on you should get out there at least hook up with someone." "Hook up?" "It's sex with no strings attached." "That's not for me I doubt anyone would even want to be with me anyways." "Mom don't come at me with that bullshit." "Marissa!" "No mom that is bull your beautiful. Any guy or girl or other would be lucky to date you or even just have sex with you." "You know I'm straight right?" "Mom with hookups you can experiment plus girls are better. Mom just try." "But." "I'll help you there's an app called tinder lots of people hookup on there you could even hook up with a couple." "I don't know." "Mom, please. Don't you get lonely or needy emotionally and sexually?" "I don't feel I should be talking to you about this." "Do you?" "Maybe a little." "Mom it's been years since dad I know it's more than a little you need to move on. Plus, I'm going to college soon are you just planning on living in that big house alone." "I don't want to talk about this anymore!" I guess I hit a nerve about dad she must still love him.

"Mom at least try. You don't have to move on. Hookups are just sex nothing more you deserve at least that." "Maybe." "Mom smile." "Why?" "Mom come on." "Fine." I take a picture of her.

"What was that for?" "For when you ask me to help you get out there." She just sighs.

"Mom you look so beautiful no one could resist you. You don't even need a filter." "Thanks, honey."

Dec 13

"Hun?" "Yes, mom?" "So, I was thinking about what you said last night." "And?" "Well, I figured I would try it out." "I bet its going fun for you." "Can you send me that pic?" "Yes of course mom." "Thanks." "I'm glad you're doing this." "Well, we'll have to see how it works out." "Mom don't think like that."

The 14th at Pam's after school

We step in the door and I kiss pam.

"Are you okay?" "Yes, pet I just love you. Oh, Sam got us a gift for my birthday." "What is it?" "A double ended dildo." Pam busts out laughing. She makes me laugh a little.

"Well tell him thank you." "I'm not telling him that. Pam?" "What's wrong?" "Do you ever want kids? Just curious." "Well yeah, but I can't have them although I still have a sperm bank." "From before you transitioned?" "Yeah, I got it a when I realize I wanted to become a girl. Do you want kids?" "I think so but not now. I love you." "Love you too." I kiss her again this time I pull her down till she's on her knees. I push her on the floor and kiss down her neck. I bite a little harder than normal.

"Babe!" "What was it too hard?" "No sorry mistress I just got a little excited." "Babe? Are you sure it's not going to hurt?" "W-what?" "Sex you say it won't hurt but why is it known that it does." "I can't promise it won't hurt at all I've never had sex with a virgin before. I do know that if we go slow and use a good amount of lube it shouldn't even bleed. I will do my very best to make it as painless as possible. If it's too much, we'll stop okay?" "Yeah, thanks. You're the best." "Of course." "let's watch some doctor who." "Okay." "Can you hold me?" "Sure love." We lay on the couch together she puts her arms around me and puts her hands up my shirt and grabs my boobs.

"That not what I meant when I said hold me." "I know but I'm so horny." "Fine, you can fuck between my legs while I watch TV." "Thank you, mistress."