chanlix ; fate

14

Chris' pov

I should've never let him think of me as that. Why would I hit him? I decided it's best for me to stay in a hotel for a couple of days just to clear my head a bit.

I stand in the room, the room that smelled like cigarettes and cheap sex.
I can blame myself only for the cigarettes though. Fuck why do I have to be like this? He probably doesn't even miss me. He's probably having fun with everyone else. I wasn't mad at him for going with Junhee I was just tired and that lead me to yell at him.

I'm a bad boyfriend aren't I?

Days passed and I'm still here it's probably been a week now. I haven't checked my phone in ages just because I don't feel like talking to anyone.

But I need to get my stuff from home. I need to back. I need to see Felix.

I took the bus here so I might go back with it too. Should I go to him just to apologize or actually stay there with him and make him even more scared of me?

[insert phone ringing]
What the fuck? Who is calling me it's 1 am.
Oh it's Ji.
"Yes" I answer to the phone not clearly giving any fucks.
"THANK GOD you answered! Where the hell are you we've been so worried? Anyways. You need to come back." Jisung lowered his voice not wanting anyone else hear our call.
"Please, Felix hasn't been himself lately. He hasn't eaten or gotten out of bed. He doesn't talk or communicate with anyone. Please you're the only one that can help him. So please come back."
He ended the call and I stayed silent. So he does need me.

I get back down on my seat and stare out the window. I hope Felix isn't scared of me when I get home. I love him with all my heart and it hurt seeing him like that. So vulnerable, so terrified of me.

I see my bus stop coming closer and I get up to press the button. It stops and I thank the driver.

I walked to my house and I see that nothing is happening inside. All blinds were closed and no light was coming out. I don't knock, just walk in. I take my jacket off, which smells like smoke.

I see a small head of red fluff approach me and I look at him in the eye. Jeongin just stared at me and said "I missed you"

"I missed you too" I smiled and pat his head. "Where is everyone else?"

"Upstairs, but please. Be careful Felix doesn't talk to us" I nod and walk upstairs.

At the top of the stairs were everyone else looking at me and smiling. Jisung ran up to me and hugged me tight. He started sobbing softly and I pulled away walking past everyone to go to Felix's room.

I opened the door and expected to see him inside the blanket wrapped up like he always does when he's angry or sad. But this time he was standing, leaning against the windowsill looking out. I approach him and he doesn't move, thinking I'm one of the others. I slowly wrap my arms around him and kiss his neck. He flinches and turns around.

He just laughs quietly and says in a soft tone "you didn't leave me." He grabs onto my neck and starts crying. I lift him on my lap and lift us to the bed. "I'll never leave you again. But now tell me, why did you think I would hit you?"

Felix lifts his head and looks around. "I don't know, I thought you were mad at me for being out with my ex." Chris felt his heart sink at that and he answered him playing with his hair.

"I will never, ever hit you I promise." We smiled at each other and were happy that nothing that bad happened between us. I tried to lay down with Felix but he pushed me off and said "take off that fucking shirt and then burn it" I looked at him in confusion but he fanned his nose implying that it smell. "If you smell like tobacco one more time I swear I will break up with you."

"I know it was dumb, I'll go burn it now baby" I exited the room and in the hallway was still Woojin standing with Seungmin and Changbin. Hyunjin and Jeongin laying on top of each other on a couch next to the hall. "Where's Minho and Jisung?" everyone shrugged but then we heard a loud slam and Jisung's loud moans. "O-oh okay." I just walked past them and to the laundry room. I threw it to the hamper and the moans were extreme now. I got out as fast as possible.

"Liix~ I'm back" he giggled at me and we cuddled to sleep, me kissing his head.

Goodnight Lee Felix, soon to be Bang.