chanlix ; fate

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What the fuck even happened to Felix? And why didn't he tell me about this before. I could've helped him. I feel like such a ruin. Why didn't I realize what was happening with him. I was a doctor anyways.

"Mr. Bang you may visit him now."

I jumped off my seat and rushed to the room.

There he was, it was like the first day we met. His features looked angelic and his nose was so beautiful. By just staring at him, seeing him in this condition, made me almost cry and crumble to pieces.

"When will he wake up? I don't thin- Alicia?"

I squint my eyes and look again at the nurse next to me. It was and old friend of mine. We used to best friends when we worked together.

"I was wondering when you noticed" Alicia stated and smiled fondly "can I at least get a hug"
"Yes! if I get at least an answer to my question"

I laughed kind of dryly and hugged her.

She pulled away and turned her gaze to Felix. "I don't think he will be waking up soon. He has this minor heart injure because of the coma last year." Alicia sat down to look up at me "he had been having these sudden attacks of fatique and tiredness. Much like the symptoms of narcolepsy. But I doubt that wasn't it. Did you ever notice any signs of change in him.

I know she could see that my eyes dilated and my breathing got quicker. "Yes,yes I did. But I never did anything to it because I thought he was just tired due to the new band that we formed." I sighed deeply "I'm sorry Felix for not realizing sooner."

I looked behind me at the boys and some were crying but Woojin just comforted them and told them it was okay, that they can still go as a team. Felix wasn't going to die or anything.

"Can you leave me for a minute. Please"
Everyone got it and left me alone with Felix.

I walked to his bedside and took his hand. I tried, I really tried to keep myself up but my knees just gave up entirely under me and I collapsed next to him.

I quietly sobbed for a hot minute and started blurring out words.

"Even when you're really struggling, I should've been there. I'm so sorry."

-

It had been weeks, and I still visited him everyday. I decided to leave him for a few days to rest. By himself. Not like he wasn't doing that already.

I said my goodbyes to him and left. I wished, oh I wished for the hospital to call me now, just like they did a year ago. To come back, to take Felix home with me. But it didn't happen. I just drived home and nothing else.
-
I finally got home and my children (not really) were waiting for me in the living room. As I entered the living room the boys turned their heads in sync. "Wh-what's up?"

"Really Jeongin that's all you had to say." Changbin nudged him and they bickered until I raised my voice and said "he's not going to wake up any time soon"

I tried to stop tears from falling but it was too hard. I miss him already so much. Will he wake up and will he even want to marry me? So many thoughts ran around in my head. I will never be a good husband for him will I?

"You will. I promise you Chris, you will become the best husband he will ever have."

I turned my eyes to the couch where Woojin now had stood up. I said it out loud fuck.

"I promise. You will be the greatest husband ever. He loves you no matter what." Woojin said and hugged me tighter than he had ever. "I know Felix will never leave you and he will love you till the end of everything."

Without even noticing, I sobbed to his shirt and his boyfriend came to comfort him too.

"Please don't cry because of me Woojin and Seungmin."

-

The situation had calmed down and Hyunjin and Jeongin were comforting me until Minho and Jisung came too. Soon everyone was there in my room with their boyfriends and well Changbin. I love Changbin he's just lonely.

"I'm really sorry for earlier guys. I really am but-"

My speaking was interrupted because of work phone ringing. My eyes dilated because of hope, I hoped it was the hospital I really did.

I let it ring for a while until Minho picked it up and answered. Everyone looked shocked and he just nodded and hummed in agreement. "Yes thank you very much bye"

He hung up and I got up pressuring him to tell me. He looked distressed and I could tell what happened. I took my keys and rushed to the car. I drove so fast, so fucking fast I could easily get a ticket.

I arrived at the hospital and made my way through the people and the hundreds of stairs just to see my babyboy.

I'm sure I pushed someone on the way upstairs but it didn't matter. I got to the door and pushed it open. There were three nurses staring at me and I opened my mouth to speak but they understood and stepped back.

Everything flashed back for a while. The memories of how I stayed with Felix for months and months to make sure he was safe. And there I was again, right by his side, making sure that he woke up. As like before, I took his hand and knelt next to him. I tried so hard not to cry but it was too hard and I just cried. 
Cried so much that my eyes hurt. The other nurses and doctors had left the room but were still outside the door waiting for something to happen. I gripped his hand tightly and felt his pulse go up. It started beating so hard the bed was mildly shaking. His body started jerking up and down and he calmed down again. He fell back down on the bed but suddenly shot up and yelled. He looked around confused but realized I was there too and he hugged me. Just like he did a year ago. The same feeling on my chest made me cry even more.

"Felix baby I missed you." I said and motioned the others to come to the room.

"I missed you too Chris"

"But you didn't answer my question though. Is it a yes or no?"

"It's a big yes! yes yes yes!! I am ready to spend my entire life with you and only you."

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A/N: thank you all for joining me on this ride! thank you for the reads and votes and comments aahh i love you all so much🖤
ps. should i start a bxb smut book?