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chapter 39: not good enough and cuts..

( this song is really sad and this chapter will be sad too so if you don't like sad things then don't read it.. )

Carly's pov

I woke up by the sound of rain and I jumped as the sound of thunder came. I got up and flinched because the pain in my arms. I look down and stare at the cuts, some were dry and some were still fresh.  I felt exhausted and weak, inside me was nothing but darkness. Just then I started to get hungry so I decided to go to the living room. I put on my white sweater and jeans and did my hair. I went down stairs and saw gene and Eric watching  TV. I walk pass them and grab three cookies, I was about to walk back to my room but I got stop by a hand holding my arm.

"Hey carly, do you want to watch a movie with us?" He ask. I shook my head and was about to walk away again but Eric hold my arm a bit tight which it hurted because my cuts were there. "E-eric, c-can you l-let me g-go please..." I said nervously and scared. "Oh, am I hurting you?! S-sorry!!" He said letting go. I went straight to my room and close my door. I sat down and put my sleeves up, there was a red mark in my arm where Eric was holding, I hold my arm gently with my cold hand trying to get the pain away.

Eric's POV

I was watching TV when carly went back to her room, I felt bad for grabbing her arm like that. As I was looking at the screen, I started scratching my arm but just then there was red stuff in my arm and my hand.  I look at it closely and the smell was blood..
I started getting confuse and my eyes were widen. "Eric, what's wrong..?" Gene ask. "somehow I got blood in my hand.. " I said a bit nervously. He look at it and his eyes were widen. "WHAT IN THE WORLD?!!" He yelled.

Paul and Tommy came to the living room. "What happened?!" Paul said. "Eric somehow got blood in his hand.." Gene said showing my hand. *Sigh* "just go wash your hands Eric, it's just blood.." He said. I got up and started washing my hands. "So Eric what did you do when you were watching TV..?" Paul ask. "Well all I was doing was watching TV and then carly came in so I ask her if she wants to watch TV with me and gene but she said no but then I grab her arm tight and it hurted me so I let go, then somehow I got blood in my hand.. " I said.

"Wait, what Tommy said before walking away. We look at him confuse  and Tommy was starting to freak out a bit. "So if you grab her arm and blood got to your hand, that means..."
Tommy took a minute and then he really started freaking out. "Shit, shit, shit, shit!!" Tommy started going to carly room and we follow him. Tommy open the door and..

I was shock...of what I saw...

Carly's POV
  I was wrapping my arm up and some cuts were hurting as I was wrapping. I shouldn't have done this but I had no choice, I'm not good enough, I'm weak, stupid, worthless, ugly. I started crying a bit and tears were falling down to my arm. As I finish wrapping my arm, I started pulling my sleeves down again but just then the door slam open which it made me jump. I turn around and I shock that it was Tommy, I quickly pull my sleeves down and look at him nervously.

"Carly, let me see your arm.." He said walking to me. "U-uh,why.." I said. "Please carly.." He said slowly. I sat there doing nothing and I was trembling a bit, I tried so hard not to cry. All of the sudden, Tommy grab my arm and pull my sleeves down. i tried to pull my arm back but I couldn't, I look at him terrified and I started trembling.  "Carly..Why..? " he said in shock. I notice he was terrified too and I didn't said anything,

This is all my fault...