Dear Emma,
It's Killian here. I know I promised to stay strong, to be brave for you and I'm trying, I really am trying, but it's really hard when your not here with me. It's so hard to not let all my thoughts consume me and to not let them take over all of me.
I promised you I'd carry on with my life without you, I'm trying as hard as I possibly can, but I can't. I'm trying so hard that it's, it's killing me inside. It's killing me inside and slowly, gradually outside too.
I just need you to open my eyes or whisper into my ears or squeeze my hand and tell me it's going to be okay. Tell me that your here with me and that you'll never leave me again and I'm never going to be lonely ever again. Because I really don't want to lonely without you, I don't want to live in a world without you.
I need you right now more than I could've ever anticipated in my whole lifetime. I need you more than I could imagine myself too. It's so hard.
It's so hard to bare the thought that you're not here with me and that you might never be. You might never look at me with your beautiful eyes and look at me too.
I feel like I'm lost at sea, drowning and I can't escape, I'm just trapped in this never ending reality. I'm just drowning in my thoughts and they are never ending. I'm just stuck in a world without you. And, it's a horrible world. The world is a horrible place, which I can't live in without you.
But for you, I promised you I'd try to be positive and I'm going to try my absolute hardest to not let myself loose all my hope, no matter how little the amount is, swarming around inside of me, which drains more every second of every day and that's the reason why I've decided to start to write these letters.
These letters are for you to look back upon, when you wake up and are finally back with me, home. When we are sat together in our warm bed in front of the fire, holding each other tight.
When my dreams are real and are not just something I have when I close my eyes every night. God how I want those dreams to become a reality. I just want you to be back with me, to laugh at my stupid jokes and for me to giggle at you like a little girl when you tell a joke. I miss your signature jokes, they may have been terrible but they were the gem of my life.
You'll laugh at these letters and you'll cry too and I'll be there by your side laughing and crying too. We'll be sat in each others company enjoying our time back together. Holding each other tight.
Get ready for these Emma, because with these letters comes one hell of an adventure and I'm going to take you on that trip, no matter how hard the trail becomes. It's always a path which I'm going to have to follow and one day, you'll follow too.
It's a story for me to write and a story for us to share together.
With every day, every second becomes a new adventure and you'll always be a part of that, even if you are not a part of it physically.
I'm going to write whatever happens every day, so that one day when your back with me, you can enjoy it too.
I hope you come back to me soon, life is so hard without you.
Love, Killian.
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Dear Emma, Love Killian. |COMPLETED|
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