Haven [GxG]

Chapter 7

Mila's POV:

Okay... Okay... Keep calm, Mila. Oh, who the fuck am I kidding? SHE KISSED MY FOREHEAD! That was crazy. I can't believe it. She just walked out like it was completely ordinary. As if it was natural. I loved it. I loved that kiss. Her touch was slightly warmer than earlier, but still, her touch and that kiss sent a shiver through me. Maybe it's not her being cold; perhaps it's just the electrifying feeling she gives me. I started biting my bottom lip, envisioning her actually kissing me. Fuck I've gotta stop. I kissed my Mami goodnight and went up to my room. I took the bandage off my nose as I winced. I looked at myself in the mirror, noticing the black eyes forming.

To most people, when they see themselves like this, they have no idea who they are, but not me. I've seen this face looking back at me plenty of times. I started to feel the darkness pulling at me.. and I just tried to push through it. I got into the shower and made sure it was scolding hot. I wanted to be numb. I didn't want to feel the darkness... I knelt down, and I added another cut to my many other ones... I deserved this pain. This is what I needed. The only thing I wanted to feel. As I cut again in a different spot on my other ankle. I sat down as the hot water pelted my back, and I just watched as the blood pooled out. Finally, becoming numb. I'm sorry, Julian... I'm so sorry—the tears mixing with the water surrounding me.

I washed my wounds, and once the bleeding stopped, I got out of the shower. Once out, I started bandaging my cuts and my nose. I got dressed in underwear and threw on an oversized t-shirt. No bra, I left the babies be free! I made my way out to the balcony. The moon was out fully, and it was beautiful how it lit up the sky with the stars. My thoughts quickly drifted to Emma. She's so gorgeous, but she's so mysterious at the same time. A lot of weird things have happened today with her eyes, and saying stuff that only she could answer if she knew what was going through my head. But man, when I looked into her eyes, I was transfixed... mesmerized. Whatever I felt, I instantly felt calm, comforted, and safe. I don't know how to explain it. I.. Think... I really, really like her. I started to become sad... My mami would never approve. Only Julian knows. I hope he's okay... I bet Emma doesn't even like girls, but why would she kiss my forehead like that? Maybe she's just that type of friend.

Filled with so many thoughts, I just couldn't take it anymore. I had to drown it out. . I put my headphones in and let the world fade around me. I drifted off, feeling a cold chill around me, but it felt good.

I woke up once I heard the front door slam. I instantly heard him yelling and glass crashing. I hurriedly went to hide in my closet. Ironic, I know... I can hear the thuds as his fist meets the body. I was trembling and already feeling the tears make their way down my cheeks.

"I said drop your fucking pants, you whore." I heard a huge slap. I heard my mom crying. I need to do something. I can't stay here. I have to protect her. I grabbed my plastic bat and made my way into the living room. I saw him in between my mom violating her and choking her out. I ran up to him and swung as hard as I could, and hit him in the back of the head. He immediately fell off my mom.

"Stay away from her!" I screamed as I hit him in the face and saw his nose start gushing blood. I swung again, hitting him in the junk. He let out a sharp breath. I helped my mom into my room, and I locked my door, but it didn't stop him.

He busted down my door and grabbed me by the throat, screaming at me that I was going to die, as my mom was hysterically crying, begging him to stop. Then everything went black.

I woke up in a panic gasping for air as, just seconds ago, he was crushing my windpipe. I hurried and reached up to my throat to make sure there wasn't anything there... Sweat was drenching my body. "Fuck..." I just muttered softly... I can't ever escape him. He torments everywhere. Will I ever be normal again?