i wonder often if I will ever get better
                              if there is any medication that could help me
                              or any ways to feel like I matter
                              i just want to feel okay 
                              people say I'm bipolar, and I never stay consistent, and I wonder if they're right
                              I wonder if I get better they would like me more
                              but what's the point, really
                              who would take the time to care about the girl who hates herself and disregards her health
                              the girl who never listens to the doctors 
                              the girl who neglects therapy appointments
                              the girl who always lies and says she's okay
                                      
                                          
                                   
                                              
                                           
                                               
                                                  