Distance
distance is what you called it
I believed you for the first month or two
the 3rd and 4th months I still held onto the hope of us
even when I saw the picture of you with her
I wouldn't let you go
months passed
you changed and moved on
but I stayed the same
waiting, vulnerable
I was a scared lost animal in the woods
wondering where my mother was
I stayed in this state for years
when I saw the ring in your finger I cracked
I could no longer live in my pretend world
I could no longer convince myself you were on a very long business trip
I was faced with a very simple choice
I could let my story end here
or I could forget about it
I was not strong enough to let go
I am not strong enough
I write this as my final love letter to you
because you are still the most beautiful thing to me
even if you are the thing I can't have
I can wish
