Come At Me

chapter 1 •

so this chapter does get... dark, so yeah. the whole book doesn't contain anymore 'dark' moments, okay? i just wanted to let y'all know that!! anyways my first chapter!! hope you all like it !

*Oh, and I will tell you when it starts and ends if you don't want to read it *

oh and the song is like my favorite EVER! y'all should listen. anyways let's go on...

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prologue

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4 years ago

"Kay what time do you leave again?!" i yell at Kay. Kaitlyn's over at my house right now. We're having a sleepover, but she's leaving in a few minutes. We're also about to start school. 8th grade! It's going to be so fun with her

"Uhhhhh right now actually" Kay says as she walks in my room. I look over to her and notice she looks a bit guilty. She puts away her phone and looks me in the eye and the guilt that was once there turned to disgust when she looked at me. What did i do?

"I can't hang out with you anymore" Kaitlyn said with so much disgust in her voice. I stood there with my mouth opened in shock. Why?

"Wait. What? Why!" my voice cracked in the end and i stand confused.

"Because i can't have someone as ugly and fat as you by me" Kaitlyn looked at me up and down with so much disgust. I felt the tears stinging in my eyes. How could she say that?

I can't let her see the tears so I nod. I nod away the tears threatening to escape. I nod away the fact that Kaitlyn is leaving me. I nod away the fact that everything she said is true.

Kaitlyn picks up her bag and walks out of my room and leaves the house and doesn't look back.

I go to my bed and curl up in a ball and start crying, and crying, and crying.

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It's been about 2 hours. I got up and looked at myself in the mirror my face had so many tear stains. My face felt dry and i felt empty, my only friend left me. She was the only one who talked to me. My older brother Adam doesn't even talk to me. Do i know why? Nope. Good thing my younger brother does though, but he's 6.

I stare at myself in the mirror once again and Kaitlyn's words ring in my head. "Someone as ugly and fat as you." i pulled up my shirt and looked at my stomach. I wasn't fat but i wasn't skinny. But i wasn't skinny. Or pretty. My ugly hair, acne and eyes. Why am i so basic?

I can't do anything about the ugly part but i can about the fat part.

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It's been two months since Kaitlyn unfriended me. School sucks. Kaitlyn won't even look at me. 2 months ago i weighed 129 at the height of 4'10' yeah i know i'm short for my age. But i have starved myself. Ive cut down my meals to once a day but some days i just won't eat. of course my family didn't notice. They don't care about me. But now i weigh 98 pounds. Its kinda low for my height but no one cares.

I starved myself for nothing. Kaitlyn doesn't talk to me. I only solved one of my problems. I'm still ugly.

No one talks to me at school. I tried making new friends but no one wants to be my friend. What's wrong with me?

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It's been 3 months. Still no progress. I lost more weight because i quit eating. I'm now 82 pounds. I know it's bad. I just want somebody to notice. Care maybe? But of course no one does. It's February now, and my birthday is today. 20th of February . And of course no one cares. My parents went off to work in the morning, and my younger brother Augustus went to school and Adam went off somewhere probably with his friends. Must be nice to have friends. People saying happy birthday to you on your birthday...