Come At Me

chapter 34 •

Hey me dudes. This chapter is "short". I really needed to get my mind off of a lot of things that happened. I am not going to get in it, but instead of channeling my anger (which is sadness that I am turning into anger) onto my friends and family I am writing it all down. I don't know why I form my sadness into anger I just find that easier than being sad, yeah, being mad is better for me even though it isn't. So I am going to lay on my bed, listen to harry styles, and write on my phone.

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Chapter thirty-four: I have high hopes that everyone will disappear

My alarm clock wakes me up from my deep slumber and I rub my eyes with the back of my hand.

Great, Monday.

The weekend was absolutely absurd. The news spread really fast after she told everyone. Turns out not a lot of people knew about it.

I really do not want to go to school because I already know what is going to happen. I just do not know if I can handle it or not.

Last time I just ran away from my problems, but I am not 14 anymore I can not just do that. But do I want to? Hell yes.

I get up and brush my teeth and wash my face. I brush my hair and put on black sweats and a hoodie. I grab my phone and turn it on. I had to power it off because people would not stop messaging me to see if it was true.

I turn it back off and throw it in my bag as I put it on my back. I walk down the stairs and my mom is in the kitchen with my dad.

"Hey"

"Hey, honey" my dad chirps and kisses my forehead. I give him a small smile and my mother smiles at me.

"Are you hungry, sweetie?" She asks me. She has been spoiling me and asking to do my everything. I know she feels bad for me and so does my Dad. I shake my head and pull out my earbuds

"I am going to walk to school" I say and my mom shakes her head.

"No, I'll take you" she protests

"Mom, i am fine. You do not have to do anything for me" I say and she sighs

"Okay. Call me if you want to come home" she says and I nod and give them both a hug and leave the house.

I stick in my ear buds and starts listening to my sad playlist on Spotify. It is necessary at this point. Okay, not all the songs are sad some are just slow, but I like the mood.

I am not sure if I want to go to school right now, but I know that I have to and I am. I can get over this. I have had all weekend to think.

Basically my weekend played out like this..

Wake up, think, sleep. Repeat. I have not ate much the past few days because I could not bring myself to eat anything.

The walk to school is only about ten minutes, so I am there in no time at all. I stare at the doors before deciding that just standing in front of the doors will not get me anywhere.

I open it up and walk inside. Almost immediately all of the heads turned to me and start whispering. What is this? A fucking movie?

I run my fingers through my hair and continue walking. Everywhere I go people in the halls watch me walk and start talking and whispering.

I go up the stairs and walk into my english class. Luckily for me english is one of my small classes with about 7 people including me.

I sit down on my chair and wait for Caden to walk in. I lay my head on the desk and stare out the window.