Forever and Always ||Cameron Dallas

Chapter 16

June 27, 2014:

HANNAH'S POV:

I was crying into Matthews chest. He sat there rubbing my back and kissing my forehead a million times telling me to calm down.

But I couldn't. I can't calm down.

I've lost to many things in my life.

I've lost my dad.

I've lost my love, Cameron.

I've lost at happiness.

I've lost everything that means the most to me.

It's not a lot.

But when you look at it.

Its a lot.

I walked up from Matthew and he held my wrist.

" Where are you going?" Matthew asked me.

" Bathroom." I replied.

" I'm coming with you."

" Woah I'm not going pee infront of you."

" Hannah right now, you're hurt. I'm standing by the door. DONT LOCK IT." Matt said standing by the door.

I walk in and lock it. I honestly don't care right now. I grabbed a razor. I've been clean for so long. But now I'm just an emotional wreck. I have too.

I grabbed the razor in my hand and looked at it carefully. I placed it in my right hand and I unwrapped my bandages from my left wrist and looked at my huge scars. They hurt me just looking at them. I placed the razor on my skin and cut carefully.

" Hannah I don't hear pee!" Matt yelled.

I grabbed a spray bottle and opened it quietly, I poured some in the toilet making it sound like pee.

I cut 4 more times so I would have 5, everything important I've lost. It was only 4, but I added 1 more because I've lost myself.

I wrapped my left wrist back up and flush the toilet, washed my hands and opened the door.

" About time." Matt said.

"Sorry I was playing on my phone." I lied.

It was 4:03pm and I was exhausted. I wanted to sleep.

" Matt come and cuddle with me please??"

Matt nodded yes and I was still wearing Cameron's clothes. I miss him so much.

I climbed into my bed and Matt did the same. He grabbed my waist and pulled me close, he wrapped his arms round me and my head was in his chest.

I was about to fall asleep, until we heard the door bell ring.

" Hey, I'll get it, stay here." Matt said kissing my forehead.

I nodded and he left down stairs.

I played on my phone for 5 minutes until I heard Matt yelling. I flew down stairs fast. I couldn't see who was at the door.

" Do you know how bad you broke her?! She's a wreck!" Matt yelled.

" I-I didn't k-know." I heard a crying voice recognizing it's Cameron's.

" Leave! Give her time." Matt said in a calmer voice.

" Please let me talk to her!" Cameron begged.

I tapped on Matts shoulder.

" I got this Matt." I whispered.

" I'm staying right here." Matt said sitting on the floor and scooting over so I can stand.