Shawn
I sat up straight in the booth as Beyoncé walked towards me. Honestly I would've never thought she would agree to see me after I put my hands on her.
We needed closure because as of now I'm the worlds biggest hypocrite. Beyoncé never knew about my recent infidelities and I felt like it was important for her to know. I had no right to lash out at her like that when I was doing the exact same thing. When the tables turn on you it feels like a knife to the heart and I couldn't keep my emotions under control.
"Hey, how you doing?" I asked her as she sat across from me with a blank stare.
"I'm fine, what'd you need to talk about?" She spoke softly as she removed her sun glasses.
I reached for her hand only to make her flinch from my sudden movement. "Bey I'm sorry for everything ok? I shouldn't have hurt you like that and there is no excuse for my actions, I take full responsibility. I just felt like we needed closure, do you agree?"
She nodded her head in agreement. "I agree and I'm sorry for stepping out on you Shawn."
I raised my eyebrows knowing that Beyoncé was never one to apologize. "I'm not going to sit here and make it like you were the only one in the wrong. I was just too afraid to man up and tell the truth and you beat me to the case." I spoke truthfully.
Her head shot up at me as her nostrils flared. "You were with that bitch the whole time weren't you? I knew it Shawn, I knew I wasn't stupid. I-I could smell her perfume on you sometimes when you came home." Her eyes now teary as they became honey brown.
"Look I'm sorry for everything. I'll always have love for you. " I grabbed her hand this time successfully.
"The baby is growing, I can feel it more and more each day." She smiled as stray tears rolled down her face. She placed my hand on her small stomach.
"I want to be here for you Beyoncé and our child but you just have to give me another chance. Look I'll cater to you baby, you wouldn't have to do anything for yourself."
She closed her eyes and nodded her head from side to side as if she was having an internal conflict in her head.
"Loving you was easy once upon a time Shawn but now I just feel like if we were to get back together it would be a repeat of the same things . So, I'm going to have to deny your request but I won't take your child away from you if that's what you're thinking. The first doctors appointment is next weekend, Goodbye Shawn." She pecked my forehead and left me there lost for words.
Onika
I paced the floors of my living room waiting on Beyoncé to knock on my door. Within a few minutes I heard a faint knock making me practically run to the door eager to see if everything was ok.
"Hey come in." I grabbed her hand walking us both to the living room.
She kicked her shoes off and shed a layer of clothes as she got relaxed still not saying a word. "You ok?" I asked her.
"I just feel like, and I know this sounds bad, like I had the right to cheat. How come he got to have his fun but as soon as I step out it's the end of the world? I think it's a double standard when it comes to men cheating vs. women. They feel like we're obligated to take them back after they've been through who knows how many girls. Shawn's cheated on me multiple times." She ranted like she's been holding that in all day.
I sat myself in her lap leaning my head in the crook of her neck. "You deserve more than I could even explain. That day we had sex in my car I could see how broken you were inside. You know I can see past your 'bad ass' act Bey."
She chuckled as she wrapped her arms around me as if I was a little baby. "Can't let anyone see you down, they take advantage of that." She spoke.
I stayed silent, listening to her heart pound against her chest. "Why's your heart beating so fast?" I asked her.
"It's always like that when I'm around you." She pecked my cheek and rubbed my back softly.
"I make you nervous?" I sat up so I could look her in her eyes.
"You make me a lot things Nika." She relaxed back into the couch and put her hands inside the bottom of my shirt to rub my stomach.
I discovered that she did that to ease her nerves which I found weird but it felt good so I didn't complain.
"What's wrong Bey? You know you can talk to me right?" I could see in her eyes that something was truly bothering her.
She laid her head back against my sofa with her eyes closed and sighed. "Onika I don't know what I should do. He wants back in my life and I would love that, you know? For the sake of the child and plus I miss him so much." She confessed.
I sighed as I got off her lap feeling kind of defeated, I'd gained feelings for her. I knew I'd never be enough for Beyoncé to rid her feelings of Shawn. To Beyoncé I was probably more of a sex toy than someone to be serious with and that thought hurt me a little bit.
"I think you should go with what makes you happy Bey. If you think it's best for you to go back and claim your family then so be it but if you want to stay here with me I'm also by your side." I spoke.
"Thank you for everything Nicki." She mumbled as she looked over at me.
I leaned over towards her and kissed her lips just in case it would be the last time I got to kiss her lips.
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