The words I never say.

Chapter 40: my empty page

This is for a lost friend of mine. 

It has only been a day, and I already miss him. 

Yeah, it is easy to keep myself busy, so I don't think of him in the middle of the day. 

But know, the day is over and I'm lying awake and can't get him out of my head.

I know that saying goodbye is for the best, so I refuse to call him, I refuse to text him. 

This time I'm being stubborn and let him go! 

He wrote to me "I think it is best for you without me anyways." I can't get that part out of my head! It makes me sad. 

I love that guy with a large piece of my heart, and he will always belong there. 

But letting him go, is the best thing I can do to myself and him. 

And maybe one day I'm lucky, and I run into him again. Maybe in a coffee shop or on the train, maybe on a walk! And we will chat again, telling each other about our lives, making up for the time that has passed. 

Doing all the things we said we would do! And maybe get a big hug in his big arms and just knowing that this time, he won't let me go!