mj fantasy fatal (continued)

5 years later

Kayla's pov

It had been 5 yrs since i last saw michael, five years i've lived with ian. Ian was funny, charming and sweet and he was my best friend, i loved him. Ian was the perfect guy but i was never fully content. I don't think i will love any man more than i love michael. He was my first everything and he had caused me enough pain but i couldn't forget him he had given me too much to remember. At first i cried, but as time went on i cherished the sweet memories. I told myself to get over him, michael wasn't for you. But i knew that i still loved him and i yearned to even catch a glimpse of him. Michael was my in my past, a past i kept revisiting.did he think about me?, did he still love me?, had i been the one to hold his heart?.i leaned back in the chair as ian came into the room, he sat next to me and wrapped his arms around me.

'hello miss beauty'

'hey ian'

He had a book in his hand, romeo and juliet. A pair of starcrossed lovers that couldn't be. Like me and michael.

'you know i never thought true love existed, i mean who would love someone enough to die for them?, that's what i think, what do you think of love?'

I heard his words and it stirred a memory.

#flashback#

'michael'

'hmmm?'

'are you awake?'

'obviously'

'can i ask you something?'

'ask then, i'm listening'

'how much do  you love me?' i asked him

I traced patterns unto his arm, my head was resting under his chin and my body tucked into his

'how much do i love you?' he repeated

'yes, so tell me'

'if i could shut all these doors and shut the world out forever i would, if i had to take a thousands bullets to save your life i would, i kiss you in the wind because the wind is softer than my lips, i hold you in my dreams because in my dreams you have no end'

That was what love was meant to be like.

'do you love me as much?'

'i love you michael, i love you so much'

#end of flashback#

'ash?'

I looked at him

'if i loved someone i would shut out all eternity if i could, i would take a thousand bullets for them, i would hold them in my dreams because in my dreams they existed forever'

'you believe in love then?'

'in love and so much more'

Michael's pov

I looked down at the memory stick, every man had his weaknesses and this was mine. I slid the memory stick into the imac and waited for the screen to load. The front cover was blank and white with a just two words 'my life'.

I clicked it open and scrolled down to the picture i so desperatly wanted to see. A face i had constantly dreamed about, did i forget how she looked?. No i could never forget her, she had been the closest to me, she had held my heart. I had been prepared to give the world to her, and just when everything seemed so perfect....it shattered. I was left alone, once again the person i truly loved gone.

Her picture covered the screen and i was stared at it trying to remeber the physical self. Her brown hair falling over her face, her bronze eyes and smooth skin, and her dimples as her face stretched wide into a smile.

'so beautiful'

I whispered touching the screen. I stared at it and then slowly scrolled to the next picture. A picture of a little girl in a red dress, a very beautiful little girl, as perfect as a china doll. My dead daughter heaven. My throat tightened up and fought back the tears and flipped the laptop shut. It took a long while to sleep and in my dreams i saw  kayla and then....

'daddy'

I looked up and saw heavens mutilated body.

i sat upright cold sweat covering my body and the image plastered into my mind. Tears rolled down my cheeks and i didn't stop them. I needed to cry, forget i was a man for a while. Whatever happened kayla had still killed heaven. Even if i didn't forget her i would never, never forgive her