i think i love you. ethma

ch. one

i sat up in bed checking the alarm clock on the nightstand next to me.

6:45

"it's to early for this shit" i say to myself out loud.

"if only i did online school"

i begged and begged my mom for two years to do online school,

she said no.

if there's one thing i hate more than waking up early it's fucking high school

i stretch and get out of bed heading for the shower.

after getting out of the shower i pick out some random clothes and put my hair in a messy bun, not even bothering to dry my wet hair.

i don't give a shit about my appearance it's not like i have a boyfriend to impress or anything.

i head downstairs and make myself a coffee, because i'm literally addicted to caffeine.

i decide to skip breakfast because i'm really not that hungry.

i say bye to my mom and head out the door.

i jump into the car and start my boring ass drive to school.

i blast uno by rex orange county screaming the lyrics

"AND IM NO LONGER SURE WHERE I BELONG IM STARTING TO RUST- DONT KNOW WHO TO TRUST", probably earning me some strange looks from the strangers driving next to me.

"man i really need tinted windows"

then i pull into my school, ugh windsbrook high.

i fucking hate this school there's fakes everywhere, people juul in the bathrooms, and there always seem to be a fight.

i start walking to my locker and see my girls amanda and olivia.

"hey babes" i say to them.

"EMMA I MISSED U" they both scream almost in sync.

"it's only been what three days since i last saw you both?"

"i know but we haven't talked since friday" amanda says.

"yea i guess. i missed u guys too"

we start walking to home room and as i turn my head next to me to talk to olivia, i feel someone collide into me.

i look up to see ethan dolan, he and his twin brother grayson pretty much are treated like royalty here.

"hey watch where you're going frances!"

i shudder.

he knows i hate to be called by my middle name so, i shoot back,

"maybe next time don't get in the way eteeweetee"

i happen to know he hates to be called that.

ethan, grayson and i have known each other since we were toddlers. our moms are very close and we all used to be, but as high school rolled around, they became popular and i didn't. i got phased out and replaced by hotter girls and fuck boys.

gray still talks to me from time to time, but ethan not so much.

i sit in 3rd period waiting for the bell to ring so i can go to lunch. and finally after probably five years it rings.

i sit by my usual table waiting for olivia and amanda with a coffee that i ordered during class in hand.

they show up a few minutes later and we get to talking about the usual, boys, drama, music and just about anything else.