i think i love you. ethma

ch. 13

ethan and i have been together for almost 8 months.

we spend so much time together, and i haven't gotten sick of him, yet.

he'd drive me to school in the morning, and drive me home. most of the time he'd come over after school, and go home late. as well as on the weekends.

but for the past two weeks i'd been really busy. and ethan and i started havin finding time to spend with one other.

what can i do ?

"emma this is the first time in weeks that i've spent more than an hour with you! i miss you, i feel like you're pulling away from me." ethan gives me his big puppy eyes and i almost agreed to go out with him today.

"ethan i just can't, okay? schoolwork has piled up, i can't just put things off because you miss me." i pout.

"yes i understand that, but i want to spend some time with my girlfriend, but i can't if all you're worried about is school, your grades are fine, you'll be fine." he grabs a hold of my hands, bringing them up to his chest while he leans down to looks at me. his gaze flickers from my eyes to my lips.

i feel my knees start to wobble.

"ethan i really c-" before i could blow him off again ethan cuts me off, "no i know, just let me do this first."

he lifts my chin up to look at him with his finger, and with the other hand he gently cups my jaw and brings his lips down to meet mine.

they're soft, like they always are, and it's all i can think about, i don't think about school, i don't think about the fact that my moms in the next room. my brain is fuzzy, dizzy and all i can think about is the way ethan's mouth moves against mine.

i know he's using his lips to persuade me into going somewhere with him. and i really tried to not give in, i swear i tried.

"okay" i whisper into his lips.

"okay?" he asks pulling away from me.

i whimper when he retracts completely from me. but then i smile when i see the most beautiful smile erupt from his lips.

"yes, okay. but come back" i say pulling him back in by his shirt collar.

"no no, no time for that emma. go change we're leaving soon." he says dragging me up from the couch.

eventually after ethan carrying me up the stairs and forcing me to put pants on, we left.

ethan drove and we listened to music.

it was so peaceful.

something about being on the road with someone you love is so, calming.

i looked at ethan for a while, he looked so content.

and pretty. ethan is really really pretty.

i smiled at him and he smiled back

"emma you're scaring me, what's going on?"

"nothing" i say looking out the window feeling tears fall down my cheeks, "i'm just happy here with you, is all."

pretty soon ethan pulls over and pulls me into his lap.

he kisses my tears away while whispering sweet things in my ear. like,

"m so happy with you emma, i'm crazy about you"

"i love you so much, i'll always love you."

"i've never felt this way for anyone, i'm so fucking lucky i have you"