i think i love you. ethma

ch. six

*i haven't been posting because i lost interest in this book but i really want to start this back up again. and since i'm on summer break i have a lot more free time to post. even if no one else besides me reads this*

*also i decided to add a song at the beginning of each chapter so you can listen to my favorite songs while you read. enjoy !*

*time jump*

it's been a month since ethan came over to my house during my panic attack. ethan checks up on me every once in a while to make sure my mental health is stable. he's truly the best. i'd be so broken without him. i don't know how i dealt with my anxiety and depression without ethan. i guess i didn't. i used to suppress my feelings but now that i have ethan he's my support person. we really are great together. when ever he is missing his dad and is in need of comfort i try my best to be there for him , and when i have panic attacks he's the only one who can calm me down.

i'm feeling a little down so i decide to text ethan.

me: e baby can you come over ?

ethan ♥️: of course i'll be over in 10

im so happy he can come over. just seeing that cute little face of his makes me feel so much better about myself. he gives the greatest pep talks. and he's the best cuddler. i could stay in his arms forever.

ethan ♥️: i'm here em

me: okay i'll be right down

i head downstairs and open the door for ethan. i practically jump on him because i've missed him so much. i notice that he seems a little off. i grab his hand and pull him to my room. he still hasn't said a word to me, which is a little odd.

"ethan. what's wrong, you don't seem like yourself" i say sympathetically.
with that ethan bursts into tears. he buries his face into my chest sobbing into my shirt.

"baby tell me what's wrong ?" i say while rocking us back and forth.

"i just miss my dad so fucking much emma. my family is falling apart without him. i feel like grayson is slowly deteriorating. i have you but he has no one. he doesn't even want to talk to me about it." ethan says his head still on my chest.

i grab his chin and lift his face so it's level with mine.

i look directly into those mesmerizing hazel/ brown eyes of his and see the pain in his eyes.

"ethan. oh baby, i cant begin to feel the pain you're going through or how much you miss him. i do know however that sean is looking down on you from heaven and he is so proud of you. as for grayson, we can help him get through this rough patch. both of us. i'll always be here for you and gray. i love you." i kiss him on the forehead and his kisses my cheek.

"promise ?" he asks
"i promise." i say back

that day i made a promise to both ethan and grayson. as well as myself to make sure the twins are always okay.

ethan fell asleep in my lap while i played with his hair. i wish i could take away all of e's sadness, but i cant. what i can do is be there for him whenever he needs me. and that's what i vowed to do.

i felt ethan stirring so i interlocked our hands. he woke up and sat next to me at the head of the bed.

"have you been up the whole time ?" he asks me.
"yea" i reply
"well come here and sleep with me. it's late" he climbs under the covers and grabs my torso and pulls me close to him.
"okay baby" i tell him

we spoon for a little while. both of us completely awake. i turn to face him and as if we couldn't be any closer he pulls us both together. my room is completely silent until ethan says
"you are my soulmate."
"what ?" i surely think its to early for ethan to assure we are made for each other. even though i feel the same way. i have for a while but i've never expressed that to ethan.

"you heard me emma. you are my soulmate. i just know in my heart that me and you were destined to be together. i don't know who else could make me feel the things you do."

"i feel like we're soulmates too. i've never loved anyone like i've loved you. and you make me feel so special." i honestly tell him

it's quiet for a few seconds until we both, at the same time say,

"i love you"
my heart races and i stare at ethan until his lips touch mine. i melt into his touch and we kiss for what felt like hours. i loved every second of it. his hands travel to my waist and mine make their way to his hair.

we eventually stop and go back to cuddling our arms wrapped around each other. i instantly fell asleep from ethan's warm body being pressed up against mine.

i wake up before ethan and kind of just stare at him for a while. it might seem creepy but he's just so perfect.

ethan sits up and sees that i'm staring at him.
he chuckles and says,
"take a picture it'll last longer"
my cheeks flush red and the best come back i have is "shut the fuck up" we both laugh for a while until i decide to get up.

"hey e do you think we should tell my mom ? she always wanted us to be together." i say standing by my mirror brushing my hair.
ethan stands up and hugs me from behind. he places soft kisses on my back and neck and says softly,
"baby we can tell everyone if you think it's time"
"i think we should" i say turning around to face him
"okay. let's go then" he says giving me a quick kiss.

we both walk downstairs to see my mom washing the dishes.

"ethan ! what a wonderful surprise"

"hello mrs. chamberlain. it's been a while" ethan says going over to hug my mom.

"hey mom. um i have something to tell you.."
my mom gives me a worried look. and ethan walks over to stand next to me.
"me and ethan are dating" ethan and i then hold hands. and it takes a while for my mom to react, she walks over to us and gives ethan the biggest hug and says "treat her right, won't you."
"of course i will" he says, then he wraps his arms around my shoulders and kisses my head.
"that is SO cute. i'm taking a picture for my facebook !" my mom says.
"mom come onnnn we have to get to school. ethan tell my mom she's being crazy"
"oh i think it's sweet emma." he's says

she snaps a picture and i go upstairs to change, ethan trailing behind me.
ethan flops onto my bed as i change into a hoodie and some leggings.

"baby we have to stop by my house so i can change" ethan tells me.
"okay ill drive" i say
he nods as a sign of approval.

we jump into my car and we head over to ethan and grayson's house.
ethan walks inside for a few minutes then re-enters my car with different clothes.

"are you ready to tell everyone ?" ethan asks
"i'm really nervous but yea i'm ready" i say back
"i cant wait to show you off" says ethan.
there's not really much to show off. i say in my head.
"emma what the fuck are you talking about."
shit. i said that out loud. i have to get better at saying things in my head.
"you are the most gorgeous girl i've ever met. don't you ever forget that." he said sternly.
"i love you so fucking much" i say
he then grabs one of my hands, kisses it and says,
"i love you so much more"
he really is the love of my life.

*i've been gone for literally 2 months but i'm so much more inspired to write now. also writing this made me sad because it talked about sean. rest in peace king. ♥️
anyway if you're reading this i love and and appreciate you*