Dear B,
Much has transpired and changed over the last few hours that has made my day from being on top of the world to being on the bottom of the ocean. Lately, that's the best way to describe how I have been feeling. I am drowning. Mostly, I feel like I am drowning in self pity, but lately, it had been getting harder and harder for me to keep my head above the water. And I have been thinking about letting it all slip away and letting myself slip under the waves.
I really miss you, and as much as you think you let me down tonight, I'm more upset with myself for getting my hopes up while knowing the hope I had was most likely false. I think a part of me is missing. I need that part back. I need to be with you again.
But my heart hurts because I know you don't feel the same way. You have her, and I have myself. Although, it's seeming that myself isn't enough anymore. I'm not enough. I never will be.
When I started writing this letter, I thought I would have a lot more to say, but I think the only thing I can anymore is I'm sorry. I'm sorry for overstepping. I'm sorry for bothering you. I'm sorry for causing more problems for you, especially since I know you don't need any more problems. I'm sorry you were crying tonight. I'm sorry I make you feel bad. But mostly, I'm sorry for coming into your life because I have caused far more trouble than I am worth.
Until tomorrow love,
Je t'aime
