the texts I never sent....

second time around staring at send

I'm hurt... Emotionally... I'm numb... I feel broken and empty... Like everything is an effort... I can't sleep and I forget to eat... Things have triggered me and I'm struggling and I just want to forget everything at this very point in time.... I don't know what to do and it stresses me out like crazy and makes me feel trapped and like I'm drowning.... I just want to isolate myself and for everyone to leave me alone.. And I swear to god I am trying.... Just give me time till I feel okay...