the texts I never sent....

I have no clue anymore....

I know it's been awhile.... But I can't do it anymore.... I miss you so much and I can't cope anymore... I don't know what to do.... I don't know how to tell you that you triggered me so badly with your behaviour..... I don't know how to deal with it.... It reminds me so badly of what I went through with my father and brother.... Worse... they don't even deserve to be known as that.....  I just... I don't know what to do anymore......