the texts I never sent....

Heart....

My heart is torn, please burn it instead so that none of the pain and regret would be left.
That's right, gently step on the shards that have shattered
So that such a thing will no longer be left...

That's right, fuck, I live because I can't die, but I don't have anything I want to do. I'm in so much pain and loneliness but people around me keep telling me to regain my consciousness.
I try to vent my anger but I only got myself... So what's the point of venting my anger

I'm scared to open my eyes everyday and start breathing...
Even my friends and family are drifting away.. I feel anxious as time passes by, it feels like I'm all by myself...
I hope everything disappears when I'm alone... I hope things disappear like mirage, I hope things disappear... I hope my damn self disappears...

I'm abandoned like this in the world. In this moment I'm drifting away from the sky... I'm falling