Drama [COMPLETED]

Chapter 13~I Dont Know

A YEAR LATER

ANDYS POV

Ever since Rye caught me trying to end myself he keeps checking on me especially if Im alone. I just wanna be alone. But I also want Rye. I miss the cuddles the kisses and the I love yous. We are finally filming Someone you loved today. We made it to the forest. We were thinking about doing the forest part first. Right now Rye was doing his parts. First he did the verse before the chorus and now he is doing the chorus. I could see some tears building up in his eyes but he refuses to let them go.

After doing his parts and the group parts we went to a hill to do Jack and Brooks part. Jack is up first. I sit next to Brooklyn on the grass watching silently not letting the tears fall. I can see Mikey and Rye talking behind a tree. Then I see them hug and they walk back over to me and Brooklyn. They sit behind us in silence. "You okay mate?" Brooklyn asks me. "I dont know anymore..." I say truthfully. He hugs me tightly. I wrap my arms around him and hug back. "Im here if you need me." Brooklyn says when we pull away. I nod and smile.

It was Brooklyns turn and Jack is sitting next to Rye and Mikey sitting next to me. "Hey Andy we havent been talking that much. How you doing?" Mikey says. "Im good" I lie not wanting Mikey to know how weak I am. Me and Mikey talked just catching up with each other. He made a couple jokes which made me laugh Im really thankful to have him as a friend. It was time to move to Mikeys spot which is just a 10 minute walk.

We walk to the light house and he does his tiney part and then he does a lot of cut aways which many wont get in the video. I laugh when he turns to look at the camera looking sexy then he makes an ugly face. Everyone joined in with me to laugh. It was getting dark so we searched for a good street to film on with no cars.

We finally found one and started filming. I started thinking about the words while lip singing and was thinking about Rye.

I need somebody to heal.

Whenever Rye would get even the tiniest cut on his finger I would freak out. He would always say he is fine but I would say he isnt and run around the house looking for the first aid box. Then after we would hug and I would kiss his cut a lot.

Somebody to know.

I knew everything about Rye. I knew all his secrets. When he was little he would always fake cry to get attention even when he was 13 but it died off at age 14. I thought that was cute.

Somebody to have.

Rye was always there for me through thick and thin. He would always check up on me scared that something bad will happen to me. God he looked so cute whenever he was jealous. Having someone like that again would be great.

Somebody to hold.

Me and Rye would always sleep together. I'd be the small spoon but when we wanted to be closer I would hold onto his body with our feet tangled and my head on his chest. He would play with my hair until I fell asleep.

Its easy to say but its never the same.

Its easy to say that you forgive people. But you dont really forgive them. You think of them as a mean cruel person. I would make my mistakes and he would make his. We would forgive each other but I know we thought diffrently about each other for a little while. It only took a week for it to be back to normal.

I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain.

I would always read comments about me saying that Im fat and everything like that. I would believe them. But he would make me look in a mirror and he would tell me that I am beautiful and tell me about all the diffrent things he loved about me. Which is basically everything about me. I didnt feel bad about myself anymore.

And now the day bleeds into nightfall and youre not here to get me through it all.

Ever since he left I have been so lonely. At night it was so cold. I would always cry into my pillow and hug them tight wishing that it was him. I would cuddle the pillows and blankets instead. I can barely sleep at night.

I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug.

I let everyone down since the breakup. I couldnt do anything. I couldnt sing, couldnt do music videos that good they still made me do them no matter what, and I couldnt do what the boys wanted to do. I just didnt have the energy. They would all give me disappointed looks.

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved.

I was getting used to being with him. I was getting use to calling him mine, to cuddling him, to saying I love you, to making love to him, to calling him babe, and to waking up in his arms every morning. But now it all came crashing down. Im not used to it anymore because we dont do any of that stuff anymore and I miss it. I miss him...

SKIP TO WHEN HE IS DONE FILMING

After filming my part I dashed towards the car and got in the very back and cried my eyes out. I missed Rye I really want him back. I need him. But I cant have him. I hear the door open and someone sitting next to me in the middle even though no one was going to sit in the other seat. I quickly wipe my tears. "Are you okay And?" Rye asks. I look at him and let some tears fall. I shake my head no holding back some sobs. "I-Im not o-okay...and I w-want to be o-okay b-but I c-cant!" I say and collapse in his arms and cry onto his chest letting out the soft sobs. I hold onto his shirt tightly.

"I-I miss you so m-much. I-I want you b-back I need y-you!" I say pulling away and staring into his eyes me still having tears slip down my cheeks.

"I miss you too and I want and need you too." Rye says wiping my tears.
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Hello! I have been busy lately because I broke my leg so yeah! It hurts so bad but Ill get over it soon! Epilogue out tmr! Oh and Im finally gonna learn how to play guitar. Im so excited!
Ily Randy kids❤
-Maya🐐