"I'm so glad you're back," Alaska said, wrapping her arms around me as we stood in the airport in Omaha.
Honestly, I wasn't sure if I was glad to be back or not. I had fun in the UK and I was dreading having to see Sam again, although I was planning on ignoring him as much as possible. I knew he had moved on and now had a new girlfriend, which broke my heart but I was also the one who told him to move on.
"Me too," I lied.
"You're lying," she said, calling my bluff.
"Yeah I am."
"What's wrong?" she questioned as we walked out to her car.
"I don't need to talk about it or else I'll sound like a whiny bitch," I laughed.
"Just tell me. I won't judge you."
"Yeah right. You not judging me," I scoffed.
"I promise."
I found this very disarming but I wanted someone to talk to and she was the only person I could talk to about anything anymore.
"Fine. Sam has a new girlfriend and I'm bummed about it, even though I shouldn't be."
"Do you know who it is?" she asked, her voice picking up a little, but I ignored it.
"No clue," I shook my head and climbed into her car. "Do you think they'll be at the party tonight?"
"Probably," she shrugged.
***
Alaska had dropped my off at my house earlier and went back to her house to get ready for the party. I got out of my car and started walking to the house the party was at. The closer I got to the house the move I felt my hands shake. I didn't think I was ready to see Sam with someone else but I knew sooner or later I was going to have to rip the bandage off. I ran my shaking hands through my hair before walking inside.
I saw Jack Gilinsky, Jack Johnson, Sam, and a few other people standing in a small group and started walking over to them.
"Hey," Jack Gilinsky said, and drapped an arm around my shoulders. "How was school abroad?"
"Better than school here," I told him.
"I bet."
"Glad you're back, Lakyn," Jack Johnson said.
"Thanks," I said, looking over at Sam with sad eyes.
"Hey!" Sam said as he wrapped his arms around a girl's waist and kissed her. I felt my stomach drop and Jack squeezed me, which I was thankful that he was still around me, or I probably would have fallen. The girl turned around and I had to grab onto Jack's hand to keep from falling this time.
It was Alaska.
"Hi," she smiled. I felt sick to my stomach. Why didn't she tell me earlier that they were dating?
"I'll be back," I said turning around and walking away quickly. I found a bottle of something and started chugging it. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I turned around, face to face with Sam.
"Hey," he said.
"Hi," I said, catching my breath.
"Didn't Alaska tell you we were dating?" he asked.
"Do you think I would be chugging a bottle of," I looked at the bottle, "apple pie liqueur?"
"Not necessarily," Sam said, taking the bottle from my hands and setting it down. "You told me to move on, and I did."
"I know. Which is why I don't deserve to feel like this, but I didn't expect it to be my best friend."
Sam looked down and nodded.
"Why Alaska?" I asked.
"I don't know. We just started talking one day and clicked," he explained.
"Now I know how Jack felt when we started dating. And it sucks," I said.
"I'm sorry. We should go back," Sam said, intertwining our arms. I grabbed my bottle and we started walking back to Jack, Jack, and Alaska.
I didn't pay much attention to what everyone was talking about, I was just trying to get drunk enought not to care, but it wasn't working.
I felt someone nudge me and I was brought out of my trance. I saw Jack standing above me and had a hand extended to me. "Come with me."
"I'm not drunk enough for that," I laughed.
"No. Just come with me," he said and I took his hand. He pulled us outside and sat down on the front step of the house. "Sit," he said, noticing the confused look on my face. I did as I was told and sat next to him.
"How did you handle this?" I asked.
"Handle what?"
"How did you handle Sam and I dating. I mean, we might not have as 'strong of a connection' as Sam and I did but didn't you feel horrible at all?"
"Yeah, definitely. I saw you two together and I wanted to punch myself in the face for letting you get away, but you were happy so I put up with it," he said. "It gets better." I leaned my head down on his shoulder and let out a deep breath. He put his hand on my back and started rubbing it up and down.
"I don't remember the last time I was drunk. But I definitely am now," I laughed.
"What are you drinking?" he asked, taking the bottle from my hands.
"Apple pie shots," I said. Jack turned his head and pressed his lips to the top of mine, leaving them there for a while and I already felt better.
***
Sam's P.O.V.
Maybe I had made a mistake dating Alaska. I honestly wasn't over Lakyn and I didn't know if I ever would be. The time I was with her were the best times of my life. And I definitely didn't love Alaska. I walked to the front door, needing fresh air because I was suddenly suffocating, when I saw two people sitting on the steps. At first I didn't think anything about it, but then I noticed who they were.
It was Jack and Lakyn. I felt my stomach drop, even though I wasn't supposed to care about things like this anymore. I turned around, trying to pretend what I just saw didn't happen and walked back to Alaska.
"Hey babe," she smiled.
"Hi," I said, stiffly.
"What's wrong?" she asked, concerned.
"Nothing. I'm just tired. I'm going to go," I told her.
"Okay. I'll talk to you later?" she asked as I started walking away.
"I wouldn't count on it," I muttered.
"What?" she called behind me. "Sam?!" but I was already gone.
***
So here is the first part of the sequel to 'Our Little Secret' if you haven't read it, then go read that first!
I was going to post this earlier but I've had a pretty crazy, but amazing, weekend. I don't know when the next update will be so please don't kill me.
Thanks for reading!
-Rianamays
