I haven't left my house in a few days. Not because I didn't have things to do, but because I didn't want to enter the real world again. I haven't talked to Sam or Alaska since the party, but I have been talking to Jack. I wasn't interested in Sam and Alaska anymore, if they wanted to date then they should. I was more concerned about how I felt for Jack. I had thought I was completely over him until the other night. I don't think my feelings towards Jack even matter, he could get any girl on this planet, why would he choose me. For the second time. But at the moment Jack was the only friend I had to talk to and he didn't seem to care.
I laid in my bed thinking about feelings and how stupid they were, I wish we didn't have any. That would make life 1000x easier. I wouldn't have to worry about liking someone I shouldn't or how I felt about my best friend dating my ex-boyfriend. My phone buzzed and made me jump a little, taking me by surprise. I let it sit on my table for 10 minutes before I finally got up and looked at the message.
Are you home? It was Alaska.
Yeah. I responded, thinking about if I even wanted to first.
Can I come over? I want to talk.
I don't think that's a good idea.
Please. I just want to talk. 10 minutes.
Fine. 10 minutes. That's all, I gave in.
Within 15 minutes I heard a knock on the door. I pulled myself out of my bed and dragged my feet down the stairs. I opened the door and saw Alaska looking perfect. Her hair was perfectly curled and she was wearing a 5 Seconds of Summer shirt and a pair of shorts. Even in that simple outfit she looked perfect and made me want to throw up. I was wearing a pair of sweat pants and a University of Nebraska shirt that was a few sizes to big. My hair had been in a bun when I fell asleep last night but now it was falling out in most places.
Alaska walked in and shut the door behind her. I turned around to face her and crossed my arms over my chest. "Your 10 minutes start now."
"Lakyn," she started, "I honestly don't know why you're so mad at me."
"Maybe because you started dating my ex-boyfriend then accused me of trying to break you two up," I said, already losing my temper.
"I'm sorry but I didn't think you'd care that I started dating Sam. You told him to move on," she pointed out.
I know I did, I just didn't expect them to start dating. "I know. It bothered me at first, but now I've moved on. If you two want to date then go for it."
Her eyes got wide as if she was surprised to hear me say that, which she probably was. Honestly, I was a little surprised too. Even though I had known I was okay with it, it was different saying it out loud.
"Then why wont you talk to me?" she asked.
"I haven't talked to anyone. Don't take it personally," I assured her.
"You've been talking to Jack," she pointed out.
I didn't know how she knew, I didn't think Jack would tell Sam, but I didn't really care. It wasn't like I wanted to keep it secret, I just hadn't told anyone because I hadn't talked to anyone. Plus, it wasn't pressing information, I'm pretty sure I was the only one who even cared.
"I have to leave. I'm going to meet Sam," she said, filling the silence that had filled the room. It was too quiet, which meant that no one was home. "I'll talk to you later?"
I gave her a small smile instead of actually responding and she walked out of the door. I doubted I'd actually talk to her much before I left to go back to L.A in a few days.
***
Talking to Alaska had made me tired of being home alone all day. I wanted to do something to occupy myself. I had showered and changed my clothes. As I was about to find something to do Jack texted me.
Come hang out. We haven't seen you in forever.
It's been 3 days, I told him.
Shut up and come to Jack's house.
I was going to protest but I was the one who wanted something to do and Jack was giving me the opportunity to actually leave my house. I grabbed my keys and walked to my car. I drove to Jack Johnson's house and saw both him and Jack shooting hoops in his drive way.
I groaned and started walking towards them. I knew I was going to be forced to play with them and I figured staying at home would have been the better option.
***
Just as I had expect I was forced to play basketball with Jack and Jack. I used to be an above average player but since I haven't played in two years, I was a lot more average now.
"Nice sweat," Jack Johnson said as we sat down inside.
"I bet I'm a 10/10," I told him.
"Definitely," Jack nodded, laughing.
"So what have you been doing at home for 3 days?" Jack Gilinsky asked.
"Watching Netflix and sleeping. Basically living my dream," I told him.
"That being your dream is the most surprising thing I've ever heard you say," he told me.
"How so?"
"You used to be into sports."
"I still am. I just like watching instead of playing."
***
I had spent over 3 hours with Jack and Jack doing absolutly nothing. The three of us sat and scrolled through our Twitters and Instagrams. Ocassionally one of us said something stupid and made the other two laugh. I got a text message from my step mother telling me I was supposed to babysit my step-sisters.
"Later boys," I said, standing up. "I'm on babysitting duty."
"Bye," Jack Johnson said, waving slightly.
"Bye," Jack Gilinsky said, smiling up at me and I walked out the door.
***
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