I hadn't seen Jack in almost 2 weeks. I had gone back to L.A and today was the day he was coming back. We had talked but neither of us had brought but what I did the other night, which drove me insane still. I was usually over things like this by now.
I paced back and forth in my dorm room. My roommate was half watching me and half doing something on her phone.
"Lakyn, are you okay?" she asked, laughing at me.
"I don't know," I said exasperated.
"You've been fine the past 2 weeks, what's changed?" Rianne asked.
"You don't want to hear about it," I assured her.
"Whatever," she shrugged.
My phone started ringing and I practically jumped on it.
"Hello," I said.
"Hey. We're in L.A," Just as I was hoping, it was Jack. "Wanna hang?"
"Yeah sure," I said, trying to sound like I wasn't freaking out and hung up.
"Who was that?" Rianne asked.
"No one important," I lied.
"Whatever you say."
Rianne was one of the best friends I had made in college. School last year had seemed so dull without her to do crazy things with me.
I stood up and walked out of the dorm.
***
"Where's Jack," I asked as I walked into Jack and Jack's house.
"He went to do some stuff," Jack Gilinsky told me shrugging.
The thought of being alone with Jack drove me crazy but I knew after what happened a couple weeks ago, everything about him was going to drive me crazy. I felt my hands start to shake and I tried to steady them.
Although I must have been unsuccessful because Jack looked at me and smirked. "Why are you shaking?" His body was suddenly close to mine.
"I-" I croaked. I cleared my voice and tried again. "I don't know what you're talking about."
He grabbed my still shaking hands in his. "I think you know exactly what I'm talking about."
His face was close enough to mine that I could feel his breath. It was clear now that he was teasing me. "I hate you. You complain about girls teasing you then you decide to tease me when it's going nowhere."
"I may have been teasing you but who said it was going nowhere?"
"Oh please, Jack, I'm not an idiot."
"Lakyn, do you remember when you were drunk and you kept asking me questions?"
"For the most part, yes."
"Do remember any specific question you asked me, and what the answer was?" he questioned.
"Not particularly no. Please just stop beating around the bush and tell me."
"You asked me if I still loved you and I told you yes," he told me and my mouth dropped open. I know I was drunk but did I have to ask that specific question? I didn't even like him at that point. "And in the 3 weeks since you asked me that, that hasn't changed."
"Jack," I started but I stopped talking since I didn't know where I was going with the sentence. Neither one of us talked for a couple minutes until I finally formed my thoughts into a sentence that made sense, at least it made sense to me anyway. "I still like you. But I don't know if we should go anywhere with this."
"Why not?" he asked, furrowing his eyebrows in confusion.
"Well, us dating worked out so well the first time," I said.
"I'm sorry that I was an idiot, Lakyn. Maybe if I was smarter then we wouldn't be having this conversation because we wouldn't have broken up."
"Jack, please stop." I didn't know why I was turning Jack down, he was saying exactly what I wanted him to say less than 5 minutes ago, but it seemed like my mouth had a brain of it's own and they were working against me.
"Okay," Jack said quietly and I wanted to hit my self in the head repeatedly like Crazy Eyes from Orange is the New Black.
***
"So, what happened?" Rianne asked. Now my other friend Madison was sitting on a chair.
"I wanted to drive my car off of a bridge, does that tell you enough?"
"A little more than I wanted to know," she laughed.
"What's wrong? I'm lost," Madison said.
"My ex-boyfriend wanted to get back together with me and I turned him down without realizing, or wanting to."
"Who's your ex-boyfriend? Is he hot?" Madison asked.
I smiled. "Yes. His name is Jack Gilinsky."
"Jack Gilinsky like, Jack and Jack?" Rianne asked. I had never told her about Jack since I had been dating Sam when we met and Jack wasn't in my life anymore.
"Yeah that would be him."
"You just made a huge mistake girlie," Madison told me. "But on the other hand, I know he's single. Can I have his number?"
I forced a laugh even though at the moment it wasn't funny.
"You know what you should do?" Rianne asked.
"What?" I sighed.
"You should go to that party that you were invited to tomorrow night and get a rebound," she suggested.
"That actually doesn't sound like a bad idea," I said. "But what if Jack finds out?"
"It's L.A. How is he going to find out?" Madison questioned.
"I don't know. But he could find out somehow."
"You'll be fine. Just hook up with someone hotter than Jack and you'll be over it."
The only problem I saw with that was that I didn't think anyone could be hotter than Jack. Even someone like Dylan O'Brien and Jack tied on the 'hotness scale' in my mind.
"Okay," I said, but still doubted I'd find anyone to make me feel better about me rejected Jack. Why did I have to be so fucking stupid? I could always just call Jack and tell him I made a mistake and I really did want us to be together, but I was a teenage girl and that seemed like the smart thing to do.
"So it's settled," Rianne said.
"You're going to find someone who makes you forget about Jack." Madison finished. And the three of us high fived.
***
Hey guys! Thanks for reading!
I'm sorry this part is so late but I was going to go to sleep earlier until my mom started drunk texting me and now I'm wide awake.
Also, please tell me a good fanfiction on here or tumblr because I'm bored and wide awake at the moment.
Thanks again
-Rianamays
