The Edgelord's Cupcake // Aphmau Fanfic

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Kawaii~Chan POV

I look at him once more before running over to Aphmau's callings to me. I put on the figurative mask I had let down and show a big smile.

"Aphmau~Senpai!!" I yell out, pretending to be excited.

"Kawaii~Chan! What were you doing? I thought there was a boy there..." Aphmau replies, checking over my shoulder to see the now-empty spot under the tree.

"Uh, no. I was just on my phone!" I respond, moving into her field of vision as to block that tree.

"Huh. I see. Well, Katelyn and I were just gonna go play some volleyball. Would you like to come along?" Aphmau looked at me with sparkling eyes, still innocent.

I nod my head, clearing it of previous plans I had.

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We make it to the volleyball court and we see Katelyn talking with her boyfriend, Jeffrey. They're such a sweet couple.. it makes me kind of envious but one day, I will find someone for me!

"Hey guys, ready to play?" Katelyn asked, clearly hyped up. Jeffrey kissed her on the cheek and waved goodbye at us. He then walked away, with Katelyn staring at his retreating figure.

"Okay, lets start! Me and Kawaii~Chan are gonna finally beat you!" Aphmau teased, even though we already know we'd lose.

"Let's try, losers!" Katelyn shouted before serving the volleyball.

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The volleyball match ended with Katelyn winning, what a surprise. Aphmau kept whining and challenged her to another match tomorrow, as I stood there smiling. We eventually parted ways and I started walking down the sidewalk.

It was a sunny day, it was also kinda warm. As we're getting into spring, it kinda makes me feel even more tired. The winter i had spent was pleasant. Hopefully summer is as well.

As I was walking down the street, I finally caught my breath. I stopped in front of my front lawn and looked at the big red door.

Does Nana~Sama want to go home today?

Not really.... I'll just be reminded of it.

What's bothering you so much, Nana~Sama? It's alright, you have Kawaii~Chan with you!

But you don't know how it feels...

I don't, but Nana~Sama is strong!! Kawaii~Chan knows and Kawaii~Chan knows you can get through tonight again!

I'm not strong. I hide behind you everyday and I'm tired. Day and night, will I have to put up with this forever? Will this lead to the end of my days?

Nana~Sama, it's alright! Don't think of me as a bad thing, I'm your shield! Whether the shield is a mask or a weapon, I'm still here to protect you! I'd rather people hurt me than hurt you, so I'll keep taking the hits. You don't have to suffer anymore from their abuse.

I don't have to suffer their abuse but I have to suffer my own mind... which one is better? When I was myself, i was tortured by those around me and was cornered into this state. But when I'm you, people like us, but mind just gets darker and falls deeper into the rabbit hole.

It'll be alright, Kawaii~Chan won't let them hurt you. You helped me, so let me help you.

After all, I'm you and you're me.
You need me right now.
So don't ever think of getting rid of me.
Otherwise you'll regret it.
Nana~Sama.