Psycho But Not Really

p s y c h o - 18

Kind of mature content, in this chapter, but I think you'll be fine.

The kiss was soft, he took his time and he wasn't determined, I caressed his neck, and grabbed onto his hair, hearing him groan, he kissed me harder, and I let out a gasp, his hands found their way to my cheeks, and he circled his thumbs on my cheek bone.

"Nate" I moaned, only earning his groans, "don't do that", he said through gritted teeth, I knew it would turn him on if I moaned again, but a big thunder was heard from afar, and I pulled away, the rain dripping from our chins. "We should go" I whispered, and he nodded. Once we were in the car, Nate was holding my hand, while the other was on the steering wheel. A content smile on both of our faces.

"Nate-"

"Thea-"

We both spoke at the same time, I looked at Nate, and he nodded, signalling me to go first.

"Nate, what are we now..." I asked, silently waiting for my answer, Nate chuckled. I looked at him, and raised an eyebrow, obviously confessing feelings to someone wasn't funny.

"I was going to say the same thing, but I guess, today's date didn't turn out friendly, Althea, I want to claim you, and I want you to be mine, so no one can touch you, no other guy will hurt you" he said, seriously. My eyes widened, did he really mean it? He really wanted me to be by his side, and forever be loyal. I smiled, and held his hand tighter.

"Of course, I'm yours" I said, and closed my eyes. Nate's big hand held on tight for the rest of the ride home. People see me as an innocent girl, well no, I'm pretty experienced in things.

In high school I didn't have boyfriends, but I did have my first kiss with the football team star, Jake hemmings, our kiss lasted a long time, no one knew, but we avoided each other as much as possible after.

When we arrived at my house, Nate offered to walk me back, and we ended up in my bedroom, having a heated make out session again. This could be daily, we couldn't get enough of each other.

The kiss got stronger, and Nate was on top of me, tugging at his shirt, he took it off, and kissed me again, he kissed my neck, and gave me hickeys. I moaned at every touch he gave me, but when he started to unbutton my pants, and his, I stopped him.

"No, not today..." I whispered and looked down. Ashamed and embarrassed. It was true, I was a virgin, so what? I didn't want to have sex until I wanted to.

Nate lifted my chin up, "Hey, it's okay, I'm not forcing anything on you, we can take it slow" he said, and kissed my forehead, he laid back down, and I laid my head on his arm. We looked at each other before smiling. "Stay here until I fall asleep" I whispered. He nodded.

"I'm going to miss you"

Was the last thing I heard that night.

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I woke up, to an empty side on my bed, he left, I mean I wouldn't blame him, he had a flight to catch. I stretched, and immediately blushed, when I saw that my jeans were unbuttoned, I quickly got out of bed, and went for a steamy shower.

They say, that people who spend more time in the shower, are lonely, or miss someone's warmth.

And boy, were they right, i found myself standing in the shower, the burning hot water, dripping off my back, I was thinking of Nate. He was a drug, my drug, I was addicted and I couldn't get enough of him.

I got out of the shower, and dried myself, before drawing a heart, next to the letter 'N', on the steamy mirror. I got ready for the day, wearing a shirt, and pants, I put on my fuzzy coat, and went out. Before going to the hospital, I brought a bouquet of flowers for my mum, and a pack of little baby toys, for Manny.

I had a warm smile on my face, as I walked into the hospital building. Walking to my mothers room, I stopped mid way, when I saw a family crying, as much as I wanted to give them an encouraging smile, I walked past them.

Once I was in my mothers room, I saw her on the hospital bed, still linked onto the machine, the doctors had shaved her hair, she looked different, but still beautiful, her eyes fluttered opened, and saw me, her beautiful smile was plastered on her face.

"Thea, my sweetheart" she whispered, I walked over to her, and placed the bouquet of flowers on the table, I bent down to hug her. "I missed you" I said. She stayed silent.

"How's everything going at home?" She asked, and caressed my cheek. I smiled and leaned more onto their hand, "I had a little mental breakdown, but Nate came and comforted me, we went on a little date-" my mother cut me off.

"Thea?! You what! I'm gone for a day and you go on a date?" Shes says smiling, my eyes widened at the realisation that I exposed myself. I looked down and scratched my neck, "Yea, and we kissed..." I whispered the last bit. My mothers mouth fell, and she smiled.

"Ohh, Thea, you're growing up, but please be careful, I have a strange feeling about Nate..." she said, but not ruining the mood. We spoke about things, and I said that I had to meet Melanie. We said our goodbyes, and I walked over to Melanie's room.

Opening her door, I heard Manny crying, and Melanie trying to calm him.

"Sshh, I know, daddy isn't here, sssh" she cooed, I smiled and opened up the curtains, her smiled appeared on her face, and I showed her all the toys I bought her and Manny.

We talked about Lenny, and Nate, and while on the topic of Nate, Melanie just knew what was going on.

"So you've kissed him yet?" She asked, winking at me, I stayed silent, my cheeks blushing red. Her eyes widened, "you have?! Oh my god!" She said jumped up, and almost scaring manny. I smiled.

"Wow, you know, I think you're the one for Nate, he hasn't had anyone to take care of him in a long time" she said and, caressed Mannys cheeks, "Nate, can sometimes be scary, I'm just warning you, when he's mad, he goes insane" she chuckled.

I sat back on the chair, thinking about that last time Nate got angry. Then my phone vibrated.

Nate <3 texted

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