Psycho But Not Really

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Althea

I had no words for him, I had no more respect for him.

I walked passed him, like any girl would do. I heard his heavy footsteps behind me, "Thea we need to talk!" He yelled, but I kept walking, ignoring him was my best option. "Thea!" He yelled, but Lenny and Melanie came in, looking shocked, I walked passed them and into the kitchen finding a glass cup, and pouring water into it.

"Thea, don't do this to me, please I need to talk to you" he pleaded, but I ignored him, I took a sip of the water, and set the glass down. Nate on the other hand wasn't having any of my attitude, Melanie and Lenny stayed behind him, trying to let the situation go it's own way.

"Fucking hell Thea, stop being stubborn and listen!" He yelled, I had it. I looked at him.

"Talk about what? Talk about that you murdered your family? For what reason?, for lying to me? For betraying me? Using me? What else do you need to tell me? That you're going to kill me? I've heard enough Nate" I said coldly, Nate's eyes were dark, he strode towards me and grasped my arms.

I felt a little sense of warmth, but that faded when he was practically breaking my bones, "Dammit Thea! This is what I mean, you won't let me explain myself you always jump into conclusion!, you know I should've killed you when you were at your worst, that way I wouldn't have to deal with your depressed ass!" He yelled. I heard Melanie gasped, and I looked up at Nate.

Nate let go of my arms, and his finger marks bruised me, I looked at him.

He was just staring back at me.

"Oh yea, and on another note, they sent your mother to another state, she's gotten worse" he scoffed. Tears found their way down my cheeks, all I saw was Melanie covering her mouth, and Lenny furious at Nate's behaviour.

I quickly opened one of the cupboards and found a knife, I held it up, and everyone was aware and cautious, but Nate, he stood there smirking.

"Kill me then! If you don't want to deal with me anymore, I'm right here! Kill me, don't loose your shot, kill...me" I yelled like a maniac, I was emotionally broken, I didn't want to hear Nate's words anymore.

Nate's face softened when he realised my words, his smirk turned into a frown, and his eyes turned back to normal, I scoffed, and slammed the knife on the counter.

"That's what I thought" I said, and walked away, before sobbing and locking myself in my room. I slid my back down the door, and held my ankles, as my head was shoved into my knees. "Stupid Thea! Stupid stupid, so fucking stupid!" I whispered to myself.

From the door, I could hear Lenny and Melanie screaming at Nate.

"Nate what the fuck!"

"Look at her now! she's had enough, give her a break!"

The mumbled words were blocked out by Manny's cries. I grasped my hair to block out the cries and screams. "Shut up! Just shut up!" I screamed. Great, now I was having a mental breakdown. Quickly there was an urgent knock at my door. "Thea? Are you okay, open the door!" Melanie yelled, and banged on the door.

I sat there, not opening the door.

"Don't make us breakdown the door Althea!" Lenny yelled, suddenly the door opened and Melanie lunged at me, engulfing me in her warm body. Nate was behind her, holding a pair of keys. I dug my face into her shoulder and let out my cries. "I j-just want it to stop!", Melanie stoked my hair and cooed sweet things in my ear.

Lenny dragged Nate out of the house, he knew I needed space.

I pulled away from Melanie, and lowered my eyes down to the carpet, "Hey... i promise that we will do this together, and everything will go back to normal" she reassured me. I tried to hold a smile, but I pretended that I needed some rest.

"Okay, well tell me if you need anything" she said softly, and closed the door, I quickly locked the door and put a chair so no one would come in. I dived into bed, and basically made my own barricade, wrapping myself in blankets, and shielding my body with pillows. I stayed laying there staring at the window, maybe one day I'll see my mother again, or one day Nate will be gone.

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The next morning, I found myself waking up super early, to go to the bathroom, to shower and brush my teeth. By the time I was done, everyone was still asleep, I quickly went back to my room, locked the door, securely put the chair under the door knob, and went straight to bed. And of course I changed my clothes, Melanie had offered me her old pregnancy clothes. which were baggy shirts and sweatpants.

I slept throughout the whole day, I didn't eat or even get up, I would occasionally hear Lenny or Melanie talk in front of my door before leaving and coming back. Nate's room wasn't far from mine, so I could hear him punching, and groaning at every punch he took.

This went on until it was about dinner time, I'm glad that there was a clock in the room. There was a light knock at the door, "Thea?, I made dinner, would you like to join us? Nate's eating in his room" she said, I waited a few seconds before answering.

"No I'm fine, I already got some food in here that will last me the night" I lied. The truth was that I was starving, but I physically didn't have the energy to move or even talk. After a few hours, everyone was asleep, I would hear Manny whimper at times, but it was fine.

I estimated it was about three am, I quietly got out of my room, and walked to the kitchen, grabbing some stomachache pills, I poured myself a cup of water, and gulped down the little tablet. I laid my head on my hand, as I tried to ease the pain away.

Then suddenly the light turned on, Nate was standing confused, and shirtless, I didn't bother looking at him. I clenched my hands into a fist, and quickly took another sip before walking off, but Nate called out for me.

"Thea? You okay?" He quietly said, I stopped walking, "none of your concern, I'm killing myself by not eating" I said, and proceeded to walk. I locked my door, and called it a night, falling asleep, I heard Manny cry again, but it was all drained out by my tiredness.

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