Never Okay|Sequel to Cigars and Cigarettes

Chapter 8

I had drank like I have never drank before. For some reason I don't think I could hold down anything. I swear Santana had to hold back my hair a couple times. Usually it is vise versa, but I think that she is going to need this toliet later. By the time I was finished up chucking I just kept getting random urges, cravings all I wanted right now was to be surrounded by food and some ripped greasy naked men around me

"Is it a full moon" I said touching my temple

"What? How the hell I'm I suppose to know? Who lookes at a fuckin calender" Santana said sipping her drink as she scanned the room

"It's just some weird shit has been happening"

"Well, ya know it could be like post break-up feelings"

"Come on, Sam and I are no broken up we just had a fight."

"Another one"

"We just have a lot of problems, it does'nt mean we don't love eachother

"Sorry if I overstepped, but just letting you know that black bolder is two yeards away from you"

I shut my eyes and wrinkled my noes and said " Are you fucking serious"

"Mhm honey, I'll leave you now"

"How ya dowin baby." Shane said setting down is bear on the counter

"Please, don't call me that"

"Well where's your little white choclate bar"

"Please, can we talk about anything else."

"What? Trouble in paradise? I never would have guessed"

"What is that suppose to mean?

"Have you every heard of don't fix something that ain't broken, well we were never broken, and I don't think that you guys are going to get fixed again"

"I'm to high to think about it right now"

"Drug of choice?"

"Coke"

"May I join you on your trip to the sky?" Shane said cocking his eyebrow

        I woke uo with a even bigger headache. To make matter even worse i spent the night at Shane's, and the award for number one girlfriend goes to-not me. I did'nt know what to say or think when the arms around me were'nt Sam's, I think that's what shoke me the most. It was weird because Shane wants to talk about feelings and a reltaionship, but I don't know where I stand with Sam. All I want is Sam, but Sam hurt me, he made me feel like he didn't want me anymore.

"I'm gonna go."

"Why?"

"This was a mistake."

"Can we at least talk about this?"

"Shane, there is nothing to talk to talk about, we are nothing I need to go."

"Can't we just talk?"

"I have homework to do and I have to shower I feel like crap"

"Okay, sorry if I-"

"It's okay Shane, don't worry you'll find someone"

"Thanks babe"

I gave him a weak smile before grabbing the doorknob.

"Oh, Mercedes one more thing"

"What?"

"I'm not 100% sure that I wore a condom last night so do you like wanna stop at the pharmacy to get the pill after"

"Ya, ya of course thanks for the heads up"

"No problem see ya around"

I left the dorm room about to head to the clinc when Sam stopped me.

"What are you doing here?"

"Uh, just coming over to get my stuff from you"

"Mercedes I don't want to do this with you, I don't wanna fight with you anymore"

"So were does that leave us"

"I love you"

I blushed before looking at my feet again.

"I love you to"

"Well ya know I got the room to myself if ya know ya wanna keep me company" Sam said with a crocked smile

"Well that's a offer a can't refuse"