Across The Street // Colby Brock BOOK ONE

Chapter 28

Hayden

It's Sunday and I'm supposed to be talking to Colby today, or at least stop ignoring him. But I've been feeling nauseous ever since I woke up, so I haven't left the bed scared I might throw up.

I fucking hate throwing up, you don't even feel better afterwards. At least I don't.

Anyway, I don't think the reason I've been feeling nauseous all morning is because of Colby. Of course this whole thing makes me feel sad and angry, but I don't think I would start feeling sick because of it.

Someone knocked on my door, I jumped a bit at the sudden noise, but told the person to come in anyway.

My mom walked in and looked at me worried. I was currently lying in the middle of my bed curled into a ball.

I looked up at her, wondering why she even was in my room. She only comes to when room when she is going to yell at me.

"You don't look so good, is everything ok?" My mom asked as she walked over to my bed and sat down beside me.

"Just feeling a bit nauseous." I told her and closed my eyes for a few seconds as she put her hand on my forehead.

She frowned and took her hand away. "You don't have a fever, but if it's not better tomorrow, you should see a doctor." Mom said with a look on her face I couldn't read.

"It's probably nothing." I told her and she gave me a uneasy look. "What?" I asked and sat up a little bit, a frown was not placed on my face.

"Nothing, just worried." She told me and stood up from my bed. I nodded and watched as she walked out of my room.

What a weird lady.

I rolled over and faced my laptop, deciding to watch some YouTube videos while waiting for the nausea to go away.

My mind kept wandering and I couldn't stop thinking about how weird mom was acting. Why was she so concerned? I've been sick before and she never really cared about it, so what changed?

Actually a lot has changed since the incident, my mom is much nicer to me and so is my dad. Taylor couldn't care less, but I'm not really interested in him nor his opinions.

That's one thing that has not changed, my brother and I still can't stand each other. He hates me and the feeling is mutual.

He really is a dirtbag, but I appreciate the fact that my parents knowledge me now. I kinda feel like a part of this family.

Colby

I haven't talked to Hayden since she went to work on Friday and it's now Sunday. I'm actually scared, what if something happened to her? Or worse...

Hopefully she is just ignoring me for something I said, if she actually found out about the party... I'm fucked. Like actually fucked and probably single again.

I planned on telling her, but it's so hard. How the fuck are someone supposed to just spill something like that, just out of nowhere?

It's been so long and I feel like she is going to be mad at me for not telling her sooner. Secrets like that could really fuck up our relationship. I don't want that to happen.

How can one single mistake fuck up so much?

I might we over my head now, but I'm worried. Hayden haven't been on social media for a while, but if her friends showed her that picture of me and that girl going around... it's not going to be good.

My head is constantly spinning and my thoughts are all over the place. I really do regret what I did, but I can't exactly take it back.

Also I don't want to push her into talking to me, but I really am tempted to just go over and talk to her. She won't answer my messages, so I don't know what to do.

I know if I suddenly show up outside her door, she is going to be mad. I know Hayden well enough to know how she would react. If she actually found out, I don't want to aggravate her more than she probably is.

"Colby? Are you ok?" Sam asked as he walked in on me staring blankly at the tv screen. I nodded and looked over at him. "You don't look like it." Sam told me with a small smile on his face.

I huffed out a laugh. "I think she knows." I said and sank more into the couch. We sat in the living room, we were the only ones home. It's 1pm so it's not that weird.

"That might be a problem." Sam said and rubbed his face, I nodded with wide eyes.

"What the hell am I going to do?" I asked him, my voice was pleading for a good and useful answer. Sam is probably much better at this than me.

"Tell her everything and hope for the best, it's the right thing to do." He said and looked at me with this look only adults usually give.

"She is going to hate me." I huffed and thought about how Hayden would react if I told her the entire truth.

"Maybe she will, maybe she won't." Sam shrugged and stood up. "Either way you need to do it, you can't keep pushing it away." He walked away after that, probably going to his room and leaving me alone with my thoughts.

Which is more dangerous than it sounds.

Sam is right, I need to tell her my truth. God, who knows what people are saying. Probably nothing even close to the truth.

I really need her to listen to me and only me when it comes to this. I need to tell her everything before it's too late and I loose her without getting to explain myself.

Even though Hayden haven't answered any of my texts, I decided to try again and write something that maybe would catch her eye.

Colby Brock:
I think we need to talk..

I sent her and decided to go back to my room while waiting on her to answer me. I collapsed on my bed with my phone still in my hand, hoping she would answer fast.

When the familiar tone chimed, letting me know I had gotten a text, I sat up fast and a smile formed when I saw it was Hayden.

Hayden Gilbert:
We really do.

Colby Brock:
I'll be over soon, alright?

Hayden Gilbert:
Sure

The way she answered me, showed something was wrong. Which made my heart beat faster and I felt like my body was suddenly set on fire.

It's finally time to tell her and I can't even describe how terrified I am. Loosing her would be the worst thing that could happen now.

I love her and I don't want to throw out relationship away, because of a mistake I made.

(A/N)
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