Across The Street // Colby Brock BOOK ONE

Chapter 30

Hayden

I sat in the middle of my bed in sweats and stared at the wall in front of me. It felt like someone had taken a part of me and just threw it down the drain.

Feeling depressed and nauseous, I just sat there, thinking. How could he actually do this? Why didn't anyone tell me? Why the fuck am I still crying?

I for once felt bad for myself, he cheated and everyone knew except me. We weren't officially dating, but we were pretty serious about each other and it hurts so much.

Colby literally meant the world to me, and know I don't even know what to think. I fell in love with him, I never got the chance to tell him that. But now I think it's for the better. Maybe it would be even more harder if we confessed our love to each other, and then broke up.

"Honey, it's time to go." My mom said as she walked inside my room. I pretty much cried myself to sleep in her arms yesterday, and this morning she made me call in sick to work. She did it as well, because she wanted me to see a doctor after I yet again threw up.

"I don't want to move." I told her, my voice was emotionless. I felt empty inside, numb from crying out all of my emotions.

"I know, but you really do need to see a doctor." Mom told me in a strict tone, I huffed and got up from the bed. "Are you going to change?" She asked and looked at my appearance.

Glancing in the mirror I saw my messy hair and some makeup from yesterday still in my face. The oversized hoodie and sweatpants didn't help either. "I don't care." I said and walked past her.

The positive thing that have happened is my parents have been such nice people lately, and after last night, they have been by my side to support me. I really felt their love in this hard time.

We got inside the car and drove off, it took us about 20 minutes to get there since traffic was bad and I think there was an accident, but I didn't really pay attention. My mind constantly went to Colby, that made it so hard to focus on anything.

But I know this was our last fight, because I could never go back to how things were before this.

Mom pulled the car into a parking spot and we got out, my clothing decision was bad, since it was so hot outside, even though it's already August. I'm still used to New York weather.

The lady behind the reception told us to sit down and wait, Dr. Hanson would see us in a few minutes as he was finishing up with another patient.

I sat down and started checking my phone for the first time today. My instagram and Twitter was blowing up, mostly people asking if anything happened. Colby had been tweeting some really sad stuff and people thought something had happened between us.

Other than that it was just messages from Kat, Devyn and Nancy. Since I'm still mad at them, I decided to only answer Nancy, she didn't do anything wrong.

Nancy Tomlinson:
Heard you were sick, are you alright?

Hayden:
I'm fine, at the doctors office now. Apparently I need to find out what is wrong with me.

I replied back, since I knew she was at work, I went back to Twitter while waiting for her to respond. Monday's we usually have a lot to do, since it's Monday and everyone needs coffee.

Since I'm stupid I decided to see what Colby had posted, his fans were asking so many questions and some even tried to blame me for making him unhappy, which I don't appreciate.

The tweets were basically quotes from sad songs, I recognized some of them. It made me sad to see it and I felt tears built up again, so I quickly went on Facebook go get something else to think about. Seeing him probably as hurt as me, didn't make me feel better. It made me feel sick.