Before I Go

fourth

"Hyungie, are you okay?" Jongin asked Baekhyun and he just nodded.

Since Baekhyun woke up, he isn't saying much. He just talk everytime that he wants to or he's hungry.

"Where is Chanyeol?" he asked, for the nth time.

Jongin shrugged, "I don't know, Baek-hyung. Kyungsoo-hyung is also looking for him," he explained.

Baekhyun just nodded. He just want to ask where is Chanyeol. Is he okay, is he alright, is he eating well, and most of all, is he happy now?

As if on cue, the door of Baekhyun's room opened.

"Baek..." slowly, Baekhyun turned his gaze to the person who called him.

It was the person he saved fourteen years ago. It was the person who cared for him the most. It was the person who's willing to play Monopoly with him until dawn. It was the person who plays the guitar everytime he sings. It was the person he finds really annoying everytime he practices rapping. It was the person who stuck with him 7 years ago.

It was the person who calls him jagiya. It was the person who calls him baby smurf. It was the person who calls him random names. It was the person he loves. It was the person he married. It was the person who married him. It was his world. It was his husband. And definitely, it was the person who left him exactly a year ago.

He's the one who's slowly killing him.

"Yeol..."

Kyungsoo signaled Jongin to come out. They should give them privacy, at least.

Baekhyun looks different.

He's pale. He looks sick. He's thin. He's dying.

They stared at each other for seconds until Chanyeol ran towards Baekhyun and hugged him.

"B-Baek... I'm really... r-really... really... s-sorry... I k-know I'm stupid f-for leaving... y-you... B-Baek... I'm so..sorry..." Chanyeol sobs onto Baekhyun's shoulder.

"Shh... Ch-chanyeol, don't c-cry... i-it's also my fault... if I-I only... told you..."

"Told me w-what?"

"The day you left me.... I was experiencing a hard time breathing... the doctor said it was just my asthma attacking. But later, I was diagnosed with pneumonia," Baekhyun said while looking at Chanyeol intently in the eyes.

"Shit," Chanyeol mentally curses.

"I slept for about a week, maybe. I'm not even sure. I just woke up earlier."

"B-baek, I'm sorry...." Chanyeol cried.

Baekhyun doesn't wan to cry but because of his crying husband, tears immediately escaped from his eyes

"You could've just killed me, Chanyeol... you could've just killed me.." Baekhyun sobs.

"You have no idea how hard it was for me to look around and find you. You have no idea how hard it was for me to spend our monthsaries alone. Y-you could've just k-killed me, Yeol..."

Chanyeol and Baekhyun just cried.

"B-baek, I'm sorry for leaving you.. I-I became unreasonable, stupid, and i-immature at the same t-time... I w-won't do it again, B-Baek... j-just... just... stay with me.. d-don't leave me.." Chanyeol cried.

Baekhyun is experiencing a hard time breathing despite the oxygen tank attached to him. He can't breathe properly. But he was certain about one thing--He won't be breathing moments later.

"Chanyeol... I-I w-want to ask you a couple o-of things and I want y-you to b-be honest as p-possible," Baekhyun struggles to say.

"Why d-did you left me exactly a-a year ago?"

"I would be honest, yes. One of the reasons why was because of Taeyeon. You keep on talking about her, and I noticed that your eyes sparkle every time you talk about her." Chanyeol said, leaving a shocked Baekhyun. "I just went out to get some fresh air, so that I won't snap or whatever... but my mom called me."

He looked at Baekhyun and continued, "My sister died, Baekhyun..."

"W-What?"

The taller male pressed his lips into a thin line, "She was fighting Leukemia for a year, I didn't tell you..."

"Chanyeol! Why didn't you tell me?!" Baekhyun said, hitting Chanyeol's hand lightly. "You could have told me that noona was suffering, maybe we were able to help her!"

"I know, I know..." Chanyeol tried to calm baekhyun down because his condition isn't even better. "Calm down... hey, shh... I know that I should have told you, but I didn't want you to stress over it... noona also told me not to tell you... and I'm sorry..."

A long silence ensued after Chanyeol answered Baekhyun. Until a questtion popped up in Chanyeol's mind.

"Baek, my turn, can I ask you a question?" Chanyeol asked.

It took Baekhyun a lot of time before he answered. Maybe because he's experiencing a hard time breathing, "Sure... g-go ahead," he weakly said.

"Why me?"

"I fell in love w-with you ever since I saved you from t-the bully 14 years ago, w-why? I don't know the e-exact reason why I liked you ever since, I n-never knew the reason why my heart beats so fast e-everytime that you're near me or around. I j-just know that I love you..."

The machine attached to Baekhyun that monitor his heartbeat started creating weird, beeping sounds that caused Baekhyun's eyes to widen and Chanyeol to flinch.

"B-Baekhyun? A-are you okay? Sh-shit, wait for me! I-I'll call the doctor!"

Before Chanyeol could get away, Baekhyun immediately grabbed his wrist and shook his head, signalling a no. His eyes were teary, and they were staring at his soul, begging him to stay.

Chanyeol gave him a worried look, despite the weird sounds.

"P-please... d-don't leave m-me..." He pleaded.

SIghing, Chanyeol nods a yes.

"Chanyeol... th-there's not m-much time left. A-ask me a-anything... a-anything you want..." Baekhyn said, weakly.

It took Chanyeol a while before he could ask Baekhyun another question.

"Do you know the date today?"

Nodding weakly, he smiled, "Yes, J-june 14... H-happy 4th a-anniversary..."

A deep silence ensued, well, if you'd count the beeping sounds of the machine, it won't be quiet.

"Happy anniversary, Park Baekhyun..."

The beeping sounds of the machine is getting louder and louder and Baekhyun's vision is getting blurry...

Until the lines are slowly.... turning flat...

"Chanyeol... I-I want you t-to know... that I love you so much... m-more than my life... m-more than anything. I'm sorry for my i-imperfections... th-thank you f-for m-making me h-happy. Th-thank y-you for making m-me l-loved in th-this short p-period o-of time.. th-thank you f-for loving me, Ch-Chanyeol.. I-I couldn't a-ask for more... I love you.. so much." He slowly said, as he reached for Chanyeol's left cheek.

But he couldn't. He stopped breathing. The line went flat.

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