HEARTS ON ICE || vn.yk

-eight

Tw // self harm

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A grumble ripped through his chest for the nth time as he placed his head in hands due to the events that took place just moments ago today.

Victor was lucky he thought. The elder didn't seem much to care about what others thought, but he did. That's the problem. Being the center of attention even for that split moment made him want the floor to swallow him and never spit him back.

Yuri realized that he should probably talk to Victor abut his displays of affection but the thing is they don't have a label to what this... relationship? Even is, so he had no right to tell the boy what he was uncomfortable with, although it was hurting him.

Sighing, he got up from the restroom's floor and made sure to make himself presentable since he did in fact run there the second Victor practically announced those words. He walked out and most certainly did not expect a short angry blonde glaring at his face almost seemingly wanting to rip his head off , so imagine his surprise.

"What the hell do you and Victor got to do with each other?" Plisetsky spat out.

"U-um nothing!" He huridly responded.

The shorter male scoffed at this, "Bullshit! I'm not an idiot." Plisetsky grabbed the taller boy's collar and slammed him to the nearest wall, "If you don't tell me right now what you are to him, I swear to god, you are not gonna like what I do to you, bitch boy."

Cold sweat started seeping out of his forehead, mixed with breaths coming in pants. Yuri could feel the in coming anxiety attack but nonetheless, choked out a few words. " I s-swear, I'm not e-e-even sure if we're f-friends."

Plisetsky ran his eyes around the boy's face to look for any indication that he was lying. Once found nothing, he growled and he released his collar leaving Yuri on the floor gasping for air. "You fucking do anything to him, The last thing you'll see is me." And with that he left but not forgetting to kick the boy's stomach.

Tears start to spill out of Yuri's eyes. He wondered why he was so unlucky, that when he finally have found someone- a boy- that made him feel things and may actually be recupricating the same feelings, he managed to have another hurdle in life.

'Maybe I'm not meant to be happy, after all I don't deserve it.'

Groaning as he got up, he checked to see if anyone else was in the hallway, and found none much to his dismay.

Yuri knew that he would be in so much trouble if his mom found out but his mind was to numb to care. So with an aching stomach, heavy heart, and a roaring mind, he walked back home.

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Victor couldn't help the smile on his lips as he walked along side his friends, making their way to class. Just the thought of Yuri was enough to make his heart flutter. Glancing at his friends, he noticed that one of them was missing. Plisetsky.

All of sudden he started feeling queasy. Something wasn't right, he thought.

The boy thought of all the reasons he would be feeling this way but got no answer. Deciding to just brush it off was the only thing he could find the solution to, so he did. Immediately Victor brought the raven haired boy's face back to his mind leaving him to feel giddy.

Classes went by in a whirl and most of the time, being the Mr. Popular that he is, students came up to him mostly asking or questioning the whole Yuri situation. His responses were just something about teasing him since they were just 'friends'. Bullshit.

The fact that Yuri wasn't in his classes though made him awfully worried. So worried, in fact, that once it was time for lunch, Victor's goal was to look for that girl who the boy was always with.

Bingo.

"Hey!"

Turning back, Irina realized that she was the one being called, "Oh hey, I was meaning to ask you something, are you and Yuri a thing because if you are, you and me have another thing coming because I will literally break you-" .

"No! we aren't anything, but I'd appreciate it if you gve me his number." He said as he cut her off. Victor had to admit, she was kind of attractive but definetly not his type.

After a few minutes of her rambling about the consequences he'd receive if he were to anything wrong with the privelege of attaining Yuri's number, Irina sighed as she pulled out her phone and muttered out the number just enough for the boy to hear.

Finally, he left to go sit with his friends and eat his lunch in peace. Or so he thought. The moment Victor pulled out his phone, Sofia went to the seat beside his and began to grip his arm.

The boy audibly groaned and set his phone down. He did not want to deal with this right now.

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Yuri didn't fight back the urge to harm himself this time. He allowed himself to get consumed by his skeletons and demons.

Walking to the bathroom, his thoughts were dreadful and almost brutal. He didn't know why he was feeling this way.

There were countless videos online of kind poeple telling us that we are valid, but he never truly believed that.

A home, clothes, food, and heck even friends. What more could he wish for? Never truly opening up about what he felt to people that he trusted wasn't an issue for him, sure it was adding to the stress, but he was used to that. The feeling of rejection though, is what he was most scared of.

He looked up at the mirror and began his routine in looking at every deatil of his insecurites.

Face.

Thighs.

Stomach.

Arms.

Tears were now streaming dow his face. He grabbed the blade and rolled his sleeve up to his elbow then proceeding to cut. Never stopping until the tears did.

Yuri could feel his light headedness, it was as clear as day. Maybe, he thought. Maybe today was the day that he didn't have to feel anything anymore. To finally be at peace.

Suddenly the ringtone of a phone broke the silence.

This was sad bc i was sad and too many happy shit was going on

hey lol im back from the dead ig. not gonna lie i was so so so lazy to write but yk im nice. sorry if the material here was too triggering but i have already put a warning. alsoooo when yuri told himself that he wasnt valid, i dont mean to make u guys think that way of urselves, thIS IS ALL FICTION AND LIKE I LOVE U VERY MUCH SO ZONT ZO IT IM WATCHING YOU.