Don't Leave Us (Book Three in the Don't Leave Series) (Watty Awards 2014)

Chapter Nine: I Feel Broke, Like I'm Half of a Whole

Chapter 9

I had to find a new housemate, preferably a boy to help raise Phoenix. I could always have Adam and Alesa come to help, but I couldn't ask so much of them. It was too much to think about, too much to handle. 

I could always ask Rebecca and Jason, but it would be wrong of me. Plus, they had two eleven year olds to take care of and a baby and a grown man would not be a great mix to that. 

Mitch and Reegan wanted to keep going on with their lives, yet I knew that they were moving too fast. I really didn't want to bother with trying to get them to stop anything. Reegan was having a daughter and Mitch was the dad and Mathew was going to have a sibling. I should be happy.

But I'm not.

Deep down... I feel like I have fallen in love with Mitch. But I couldn't do that to my daughter. She was so lovely and I wanted her to feel happy. And now I knew why I couldn't have them get married in the first place: it was because I'm in love with Mitch.

Mitchell Donald Ralph Hughes is the man I wanted to be with more than anything.

But it was impossible. 

He was happy with my daughter for goodness sakes. It was painful to see them being so happy as I was in love with Mitch. I can't do that to him or to Reegan. 

Phoenix starts to fuss and I pick him up, starting to rock him. Maybe it was meant to be this way. Maybe I wasn't meant to be with Mitch. 

Maybe I wasn't meant for anyone.